Friday, October 31, 2008

How :(

How does one deal with rejection? How does one deal with endings? How does one learn to accept? How do I do this?

I've heard a lot of theories - and these I should have faith on since they came from people I trust, from people who may not know how it feels to be here -- but people who are sensitive enough to feel that I've fought hard enough and that going beyond that enough is extremely damaging.

But I do not know to start to even try living these theories. Wala akong kakampi. Kahit iyong mismong pinaglalaban ko -- wala na. But I don't know. There is this part of me that just would not quit. Ayaw niyang tumigil kahit hindi niya alam kung saan pa niya hinuhugot iyong mismong bumubuhay sa kanya.

Sorry? Please do not tell me you are sorry. I'd rather have you not say anything than say that.