Friday, December 31, 2004
i cant believe im welcoming the year 2005 with so much hatred in my heart... it rots my soul.the bitch in me is coming out.
but still, i would not want to spoil the season of those luckier than i am this time. so still, i want to greet all of you a HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR :0 im sincere, dont worry guys. may god bless you more and more. let's pray for each other.
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ah before i forget, let's all pray for those who died in thailand. i just read my email and i was shocked when i found out my classmate in theo last sem - sharky, a bio major, died on the tsunami incident. tsk.. tsk.. god really works in mysterious ways. death comes unexpectedly for most. when it's one's time, it's his time - wherever he is, whenever.
Posted by tengcorrea at 12/31/2004 10:35:00 AM
I wouldn’t give out details here because sometimes, no matter how much we want to let things out to make ourselves feel better, we know it would be best to keep things to ourselves for the mean time. So let’s just put this way, my family is not ok. It’s not that my parents are getting separated (hope it doesn’t get to that) or that im pregnant or my brother is a drug addict –and the like (I hope you somehow ‘get’ me). but definitely, there’s something wrong. Hello, it’s been a while since I saw and heard my mother talk like that with my father in front of me / us. And what irritates me most is the reason behind their argument – very stupid,, hay.. I don’t know – just not worth it – but no nonsense, I must admit.
I know this is not fair but this time, I publicly say that I am taking side. I’m with my mom. I don’t know, I just find truths in what my mother was saying. and I perfectly understand how she feels right now. We all come to a point when we feel that our word is important. Sometimes, we need to be affirmed that we have a ‘say’ on things and thus should be listened to. We all come to a point when we feel that we should be given the most attention. We all come to a point when we feel that our OWN problems must first be attended to before anyone else’s. yes, that’s very selfish, you might say. But if it through this selfishness that I get to manifest my love for my family; if it is through selfishness that I get to protect my family – then so be it.
I have always been thankful for my family. Although I don’t get to thank God everyday for such a blessing and even though I don’t get to express to my parents and my brother how much of a blessing they are to me – my family means much to me and this i just realized these days.
Where does one draw the line between being selfish and being just protective?
I am selfish now. but I realize that no one messes with my family.
I can make my mother cry. My brother can make my father cry. My father can make me cry. Any of the four of us can make any of us but no one outside can.
jan. 09, 2005 (hehe, i read this entry at nakakahiya dahil puro kulang at mali-maling sentences pala. hay.. hindi ko na na-edit pala sa laptop ko, sobrang sentimiento kase, haha)
teetah, that's why you dont get the story. hehe, mali-mali
Posted by tengcorrea at 12/28/2004 09:29:00 PM
hehe.. christmas pic
Posted by tengcorrea at 12/25/2004 01:01:00 AM
wait wait.. im not a drug addict or a smoke addict -- so far, nothing really harmful, hehe. im just adddicted to 'little' things
for instance, right now, im addicted to wrapping gifts, hehe. hey, that;s perfect for the christmas season. that's a positive thing so at least i get to be quite productive :9 if i dont finish college (knock on wood), I'd probably work in a shop as a gift wrapper. yikes.. just kidding.
last week, my addiction was cross-stitching. hehe, i discovered these cute 'cross-stitch' key chains that are really cheap -- 28.50 each, can you imagine? kewl). hay, i was willing to stay up to 4 am just to get to finish stitching. never mind school - the long exams plus the pre-break research (nerd). i also didnt care going to school really groggy. wala eh -- addicted.
another addiction - DONUTS. thanks to cello's donuts and dips na pakalat-kalat sa quad 2. argghh, i couldnt help but try all the flavors. (ymm, oreo, cheese, peanut butter, m & m sprinkled, peanut butter, chocolate, caramel, sugar glazed - -gee, thanks, im making myself feel hungry now). never mind the 'masungit' vendor. (she was like - 'teka lang ha, hindi pa kase kami ready'; 'wala kase kaming sukli') oh well, she must have seen in me how much i wanted their donuts (ang aga ko ba naman kase) so it doesnt really matter if she acts cold/intimidating/whatever, im still gonna buy by the way. hehe. hmm,, im addicted not just with cello's by the way but of course with dunkin and mister donut, as well (that is, pag ubos na cello's, hehe). their donuts in cello's are extra soft and not as sweet (to the point na 'nakakaumay') as dunkin and mister donut.
ok, enough food talk. it 's making me salivate, hehe. just kidding.
\ano pa ba kwento ko?
i saw geoff eigenmann this afternoon in atc while we were having coffee. i was telling my cousin how i wanted to see heart in person (she used to be my idol, btw, but not anymore, now that she's overrated) -- . then she said, "oh si geoff." haha, kewlness. im really not a fan -- pero ang baduy ko talaga. naaaliw ako pag nakakakita ng artista.
then while waiting for our car outside naman, we saw maui taylor who happens to be a schoolmate of my cousin. she was wearing thongs and she has big butt. tama bang yun ang makita di ba?
i also saw two of my pe mates - oh well, i dont like them both - the brat and the whiner so of course, i didnt say hi. i also saw tooney, my english blockmate last year. she is a nice girl - we greet each other every time we bump into each other arounfd school but i didnt say hi because she was eating with a friend whom we recognized to be a commercial / print model.
christmas eve na tom. yihee, we'll be opening gifts, singing, dancing, eating, -- spending time with the family. im excited. :) pero ngayon pa lang happy na ako - -my parents are extra generous this year. i was able to buy several tops din - sa tiangge - plus the vacuum flask that i have been planning to buy before the year ends. materialistic -ehh ?? medyo.. pero siyempre, im happier that im with mi familia - mi mama, mi papa, mi hermano, mis primas, mi primo, mi (grannies) HEHE, i forgot the spanish term.
on christmas day, we are going to pitogo - my father's province. that'll be my second time there so im kind of looking forward how the place has changed. (though im not so sure if i still can vividly remember how it looked before -- years ago)
bye bye for now. im sleepy. plus im using my tita's net card. (thanks, tita tewet. she;s snoring now-- hehe, joke.)
-- MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! --
GOd bless us all.
thanks to all those who love me ; to those who care
and thanks even more to those who DONT.
love you all. mwah.. :*
Posted by tengcorrea at 12/23/2004 02:13:00 AM
yehey.. because this is the last day of school for this year. the christmas break officially starts tomorrow.
(half-meant) because im not really that excited about the break - hmm.. it's just that i have lots of books to read for our history 16 reporting on eunuchs. god, i'll be bringing those heavy books to baler ( i have about 6, by the way) plus i have to reread memoirs of a geisha plus write a reflection paper on any 2004 MMFF entry. (owkeyy, bear with me, im just writing here my TO-do list for christmas break.
looking on the brighter side of life, hehe,, kahit papano, im still looking forward to christmas. :) it still is the most wonderful time of the year (hehe, i feel like singing). my parents and my brother are going here to manila this 20th because as part of tradition, we celebrate christmas with my lolo and lola (father side) - eating dinner and waiting until 12 before we can open our gifts. :) i can picture my younger cousins patiently waiting for midnight - trying their best to keep themselves awake.
then on the 27th, i'll be 'home sweet home' (imbentong sentence na to!). although i somewhat dread the sight of villa, aurora (a town we'll pass by going to baler, Which i heard from the news was buried due to landslide - im just not sure how great the damage was). another thing is that - i would have to endure a week without electricity (still, because of yoyong, even baler, the poblacion doesnt have electricity). well, at least pala, we have generator at nighttime (galing sa hospital :0 - thank god they decided to fix it)
well, that's it. in spanish, eso es. (huhu, i just had my long test on that subject the other day and oh well, el examen es dificil.) gotta go 'cause i still have to rush to the lib to check on more resources on eunuchs .(darn,, loser)
i wont be able to update this in the next three weeks, i guess. -- how sad -- no electricity, no internet but at least, I would be home ,right? (right, teng -->> my conscience)
Posted by tengcorrea at 12/17/2004 02:11:00 PM
it's weird how im beginning to be 'interested' in someone i've only met once. kewlness, i have a new crush. :) i honestly look forward to bumping into him again. (kilig mode)
kakaiba ako. hehe.
