Monday, June 19, 2006
i loved you because you were beautiful.i love you now because you are ugly.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/19/2006 09:09:00 AM
EK! :p
Current LSS:"tan dan dan dan.. the magic is here. tan dan dan dan.. (i don't know, hehe) ..
at Enchanted Kingdom"
June 11. @ Enchanted Kingdom, Teng and Tal
a combination of:
The right date. The right place. The right company.
(the cure to anyone who feels that everything seems so wrong these days)
MAGIC. We say that something is magical when it escapes our eyes, our understanding, our logic. Magic doesn't exist in the real world, it is only possible in and through one's imagination.
And on June 11, i realized that magic indeed is in Enchanted Kingdom. (hay.. do i sound like an advertisement of the theme park? :p)
June 11, 2006. Exactly one year ago, I committed myself to someone (i believe) i love(d). Unfortunately, it didn't last for a year as i thought and wished then. For quite some time, I was in a magical world with him. But we lost grasp of it months ago.
BUT.. ya! (korean term for "hey" :p,) this entry isn't about a lost magical moment, but a found one.
we can create magic. we can do wonders. we can allow ourselves to be happy by flying and leaving behind everything that pull us down. even for just a day.
so... :) [ change of mood , haha]
You might think I am childish but a day at a theme park is still an enjoyable gimmick for me at this age, haha. The last time I was in Enchanted was years years ago (when the entrance fee is still 350, if i remember it correctly) with my family. Thank God to my beloved Globe they gave me two free tickets! :) And since the Weekend pass tickets are valid only until june 14, Tal and I had no other choice but to go there last Sunday.
Hmm.. tsk tsk, I actually don't know how to re-capture the experience in detail. but ok, i'll try.
Tal and I left the dorm at around 8 am (haha, excited), rode the LRT2 to Cubao, then the MRT to Ayala since Hannah, an officemate from Globe, told me that there are public transpo vehicles near Landmark Makati going straight to EK. So we knew then how we were going there BUT we still didn't know how we are getting back, and the prob was: we intended to go home real late because we wanted to of course, see the fireworks.
But thanks to the Pasyal Pinoy shuttle service (eeeww.. I sound like an ad again), because for P250, EK, here we can come and go. (haha, labo)
After the enjoyable around 30-min van ride ( 'enjoyable' because tal and i loved the aircon, tal loved the smell of the car - hmmm.. weird. haha, peace, tal), we arrived at EK around 10:20. Then we did what cam whores do - picture picture. Then we first rode the Flying Fiesta, which got us disappointed because it didn't give us the feel (then) that we were flying because it was flying low. haha, weird how i say it.
Then we rode Rialto but was disappointed again because the show then was blah.. haha, Hannah Barbera,SCooby shit, so childish (haha, look who's talking). The ride wasn't even scary.
Then.. the Space Shuttle. woah.. Not my first time to ride this but this time, I opened my eyes and saw the world upside down. Cool. After that, we walked around, canvassing for the cheapest lunch we could get - since we were on a tight budget, hehe.
REalizing the heat (humidity, oh well), we grabbed our shakes, then ate lunch after. And what follows after eating? Baboy reflex says it's sleep time. Tal was so sleepy, while i was bloated - stomach-heavy with that burger and fries i ate. I was feeling dizzy then and hot, so while Tal said she would take a power nap on one of the benches there (she wasn't thinking clearly, that time. haha, keber whoever sees there), I by myself rode the Flying Fiesta twice! And to be fair, the ride was much better than the first one. :) Of course, the wind made me cool a bit but after the ride,woaahh.. back to reality - goddamn heat..
I went to Tal who had her power nap already, but she still didnt look that 'powerful' (haha, the term) - energized, yet. i also was still feeling bloated. But we decided to walk around - like drained batteries being charged under the heat of the sun (and the air). We were so drained we couldn't even laugh, and we both knew what we wanted - a bed in an airconditioned room.
Thanks to RioGrande Rapids (the ride where you should expect to get wet) for getting us wet; and recharged! haha.. woohoo. Who cares walking around the park with wet hair, wet shirts (half-wet for me) and "you-think-i-peed-but-no!" wet pants, (and wet rubber shoes in tal's case)?! Not satisfied with that water ride, the next attraction we went to was Jungle Log Jam - the ride with no safety device, just an advice on a safety position (no head back, haha).
Then we spent the rest of the afternoon trying to ride all the rides - except those eggs and dinosaurs and mini-helicopter rides and pig rides for kids, ha!, and the swans. But we rode:
the RollerSkater (the "ah tapos na?" rollercoaster ride, duh);
the Anchor's Away (which Tal didnt ride. it wasnt as scary as before, though);
the Up Up Away (the "i want to be a filot" hot air balloon ride);
the Grand Carousel (with the fun music - sooo amazing you could dance to it, while riding the horsey - using any step :p);
the Dodgem bump cars (which according to an ale beside me while we were lining up - to her granddaughter "ah yan, hindi naman yan nakakatakot tulad ng bump cars") wow, thanks mother. I love your insight! [an insight, indeed!]
Drained again at around 5, we decided to go to a Mcdonalds in Walter Mart. Aircon plus to avail of their promo. Binged, then as we were to go back, we realized that it was raining real hard so we decided to stay a bit longer, walk around the mall.
We went inside the department store and came across those cool "Cool Basics" (see, i remember the brand) white shirts with very funny prints such as:
- "I am fungus. I am fungus. I am fungus. I am fungus" (in different fonts for variation, and pictured is a pink fungus; and below is an affirmation: OH yes!)
- If you want to see the rainbow, wait for the rain. (then below is a green frog saying "Hello?!" - haha, oo nga naman, so basic!)
- i'm dreaming (pictured in front is a healthy pink fish), then at the back, it says: "not dream" (pictured this time is the same fish, with no flesh. fish bone already. haha, ang kulit.)
We went back at EK around 7. I was still drizzling so we decided to ride those where we wouldnt get wet of course. (helllo?! as Froggie said) - the Grand CArousel, Dodgem) and when it stopped raining (but we didnt see a rainbow because it was night already - hello?! again, as Froggie would say) - we rode Up Up and Away; and Flyyy--ing Fiesta.
Afterwards, low batt again so we just watched those riding the Space Shuttle while waiting for the 9 pm fireworks.
Fireworks. then went home. rode a taxi. were home. took a shower. drank coffee. tal ate burger. then slept.
haha, isn't it obvious im getting drained writing this entry? okiedoks. i might edit this next time. Never mind the errors first. haha, i was just typing what came to mind.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/14/2006 02:57:00 PM
nagbibinata
i was checking out my brother's friendster account:
About Me:Cute sabi nila, may taling sa mata hehehe, Crush daw ng bayan sabi nila ulit. taong mabait, palakaibigan at ayaw na ayaw ng may kaaway. Pandak ako pero astig. Matalino rin. Player ng badminton, gusto ng kaibigan. medyo matigas ang ulo. Matipid sa lahat ng bagay pwera lang sa pera hehe. joke lang.
Who I Want to Meet:Gusto ko ng chinita, maganda ang mata, chinita, mabait, chinita, matalino, cute, marunong makisama, hindi matigas ang ulo, gusto ko pareho kami ng height hehehehe!, type ko yung medyo may pag ka bad girl hehe, ang weird ng gusto ko, Basta gusto ko ng chinita.
***
ayy.. my brother is soooo cute (and funny). haha, pamilya talaga namin, oo! no, kidding aside, hayy.. i just realized how quickly time flies. my brother is growing up, hehe. i am not. haha, just kidding.
hyper.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/14/2006 10:28:00 AM
no eyefolds
hmm.. i just realized today a major flaw i have - i don't have eyefolds!i was talking with clarise yesterday while waiting for our random numbers to be called during reg, and i noticed her cool eye make-up, which wasn't that obvious when her eyes were open, but when she'd blink, i could see the blue purplish shade (tama ba, clar?)
so this morning, as i was doing my daily morning face ritual in front my 3-yr old face mirror, i was wondering if i could do the same 'trick'. haha, but i noticed that i dont have eyefolds! (thanks to tal for the term. ehem, but initially, she said it's called eyecaps. "oo", "ah.." naman ako, hehe :p peace, tal!)
i thought at first, that maybe, i have but i just couldn't see it really because i slept late. i then asked tal to show me her eyes, and she has - real folds (haha, for the lack of apt description)!
hmmpff.. how can that happen? i eventually realized my eyes are like that of a frog or a fish. huhu.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/08/2006 11:14:00 PM
*yawn*
hay.. i had 9 hours of sleep and yet, im still sooo sleepy.(whew. yes, i again slept with my contact lenses on; my laptop open; and my teeth unbrushed. kadiri, but maybe i was that tired yesterday)
Tsk tsk. Tal and I could have watched an episode of Full House last night. I even was planning to drink a cup of coffee or my chocolate drink before I lied down (and eventually fell asleep).
That is why, from now on, Tal and I made a deal that when she sees me sleeping and I look like not yet 'ready' or 'meant' to sleep, she'll wake me up. :p
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/07/2006 09:17:00 AM
thoughts on cheese
A break from all those corny jokes being passed around via text:In a world where almost everyone you meet is a jerk, you know you don't need to be serious. Hang out, pretend and play with them. Have fun and stop anytime. No attachments, no commitment, no pain. Convenient, isn't it?
But at the end of the show, you know you are still yearning for something genuine. You realize that what you are really looking forward to is someone who can look at you straight in the eyes and tell you that he loves you -
..someone worth every risk of pain;
.. someone who'll stay;
..someone who'll simply make a difference.
***
Cheesy, huh? We might think it says something that we already know. But i think the "yearning" it speaks of is also something that we find hard to understand, maybe because it is not meant to be understood.
It may be true. We all feel the yearning to be loved - truly, "genuinely". And with the yearning and the looking forward, there inevitably comes the experience of joy and pain, and all the various emotions, which can only be named and described by those who feel them.
But not everyone "finds time" to name their emotions, or to describe it in detail as if writing a news lead containing the 5 W's and the H.
And I admire the people who don't, because allowing oneself to dwell and eventually drown in one's emotions is not just depressing but limiting.
You meet someone who eventually becomes important to you. He eventually becomes a "specific" in your life - there is a certain part of you that only he can understand; a certain mood of you that only he can ride; a certain happiness or pain that only he can give; a certain level of conversation that only he can carry with you.
He becomes no longer a dispensable anyone but a someone. He becomes different from other people you know; or you think he makes so much difference - he makes or breaks. And 'when he breaks', you start asking whether he's all worth it. 'When he makes', you start asking - for how long will he stay?
Not forever, you realize. then you start limiting the difference he makes in your life. You start to doubt the look in his eyes, which felt so true before. You start to think he is a lie.
Because you started asking questions. Because you started thinking about what are only supposed to be felt. Because you started to name that which are meant to be nameless.
_
Whew.. such a long entry. All because I wanted to make some sense out of a cheesy text message. :)
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/06/2006 02:21:00 PM
g2g grad
Picture 1. Here's a group picture from my G2G graduation (yep, we've already graduated but im still here in the office, and i'll be here 'til this friday)be the judge if i am that 'deviant'. haha. :p
Picture 2. After knowing that one person appreciates my pasaway OUTfit [ haha, out of place ] (and that's Clarise :p, by the way), here's another pic showing the yellow shoes.
i better eat lunch now, and start working after. Hehe
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/05/2006 12:13:00 PM
ff up on being deviant
Picture below. Taken at Sir Archie's house, while Magic Sing-ing with my friends from CMS. What I'm wearing here is by the way the controversial "are-you-going-to-the-beach?!" attire? Tsk tsk, sayang, the picture doesn't show my sandals.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/05/2006 09:21:00 AM
deviant
why do i feel that i have a problem dressing appropriately?(haha. that sounds stupid but that's a valid question.)
Proofs?
Corporate Attire redefined. The shoes that I wear to Globe almost everyday cannot be considered as a "corporate" shoes. It's closed, yes (so that's obedience to the rule) but it is flat; and that's what's boo. On some days, I even just wear my flat abaca sandals with flower detail (take note: it is flat, and open toed.)
An anecdote. -The other day, I went to the office wearing my long sleeves, a "katsa" 3/4 pants, and my flat open-toed sandals. (haha, 100% pasaway). unfortunately for me, i didnt take into consideration that on that day, we were to go to an after-office, merged birthday party for 4 CMS guys). i was eating my caramel cake when the owner of the house. Sir Archie, commented:
Boss: iyan ba ang sinusuot mo sa office?
Teng: (laughs..the hehe laugh, take note). Hindi, umuwi ako. [ang labo ng sagot ko di ba?]
Boss: bakit, san ka ba umuuwi?
Teng: (thought: naku, patay, sineryoso niya. akala ko nakikipagbiruan lang) sa Katipunan. [ang labo ulit]
Boss: naku ha, ano yan pupunta ka sa beach?
Teng: (thought: wah..exit teng, exit)
by the way, almost everyone was there at the dining area - including my IS. darn. caught in the act of a violation.
Also, I don't wear sleeveless shirts (without the "coat"), tube tops or blouses with plunging necklines, but there are days when I wear the cotton long sleeves, without the collar and the buttons. (shoot. i suck with descriptions).
Semi-formal redefined. then later, in would be our internship graduation,we are to wear something semi-formal (a cocktail dress, i.e.) but no, im wearing a gimmick dress. haha. i was looking for a reasonably priced cocktail dress yesterday at megamall, and i was having a really hard time because i wanted something colorful (yes, as extreme as yellow and a quite bright olive green [ hmm.. does that make sense?]; and other weird color combos). But at the same time, I wanted something that would match tal's black shoes or my yellow pointed shoes [ quite a 'wide range' right?].
Ssshhh.. so many 'requirements'. so i wasn't able to buy a dress. i ended up buying a green top, which i eventually realized to be soo ordinary, and with the black skirt i bought way way before - wouldnt qualify as a semi-formal attire.
haha. so again, i'll be a pasaway, to quote tal :)
yan tuloy. i miss school, because there, i can wear anything i want.
Posted by tengcorrea at 6/02/2006 01:16:00 PM
saved as draft
(i rarely save my posts as drafts for i usually publish it right after writing. but this post - it took me two sessions to write it. im talking about two people. and in the same way that i cannot collect my thoughts while writing this entry, i cannot collect as well the emotions these people cause me. )i never thought he could make me cry.. that hard.
i thought that i was ok the whole day yesterday. when my friend sep on our way home from work (during our bonding moments while waiting for a cab) =he asked me how i was - i told him, i was "feeling better".
and i was. i really was feeling better then. i got home, and was still feeling better -
until i had my expectations which i didnt get.
I hate it when questions flood my mind - questions that i know i shouldn't be asking, as these make me realize how pathetic i am.
i was hurting because of him. and yet i knew that i just need one person beside me to make it less hurtful; and that's the other he - who i believe used to love me but turned his back from me because he concluded from my stories that i 'love' the other he.
if he still loves me., i know how i am being unfair - for i am crying over someone while with him; and that is hurting him because i am shedding tears for somebody else.
