Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas!

Yey :) My favorite time of the year.

For the past week, I have been complaining (mostly to myself) how the spirit of Christmas is so not here. The last week had been busy at work, as usual. I have been revising my Nueva Ecija report. Not to mention the controversy our department is facing with AGB. Tsk tsk, and semi- because of that, our forced leaves on the 26th to 28th were cancelled. Some people then had to report for work on those dates. (hay.. working holiday). But thanks to my boss - she allowed me to be absent on those days because she understands I also need this time to spend with my family. I have to revise my report from here but at least, I am home.:)

But anyway.. Christmas it is. We even just had our Ocho Buena here. Haha Ocho Buena because we could not even wait for midnight, because Mama Papa and I were so hungry already (my brother Michael an exception because he is not really into food - as what is obvious with his body). So we already ate, and now we're all feeling sleepy, haha. I just hope we still get to wait for 12 before we open our gifts. haha.

Speaking of an early noche buena, thanks to all who sent me a Christmas message as early as two days ago. I think a lot of people were anticipating the network jam later. Hmm. thanks to you all. and to everyone else who i might not be able to greet later - MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all. :)

Posted by tengcorrea at 12/24/2007 12:42:00 AM

0 comments Wednesday, December 19, 2007

The 18th

It’s been three months since I told him. It was like the stating the obvious as I told him – but then I am glad to know that indeed he was surprised and was made happy with what I said.

The gift of expression- I can say I am happy that these days, someone is slowly making me learn how to re-unwrap this gift.For the past months until then, I felt that my feelings were better left unsaid. I was then afraid of being looked at as a wrecker, of my own indecisiveness. Now, I still am afraid but not so much on those things anymore. I am afraid of not saying it as frequent, of not doing things that would make up for such otherwise empty words. I want him to feel that I meant and still mean what I said on the 18th, three months ago.

Around last week, I thought I am going back to my cycle. I thought I am again starting to lose grip on people once I get the feeling that I am no longer as important to them as much as I initially felt or would have wanted to. But I was wrong. I was not losing grip. Quite the opposite, I think I have been holding on too tightly that I experience greater frustration with things that cannot be, of time that cannot be spent together. Tsk.

So now when I say those words again, I still mean them and I mean them more.

Posted by tengcorrea at 12/19/2007 01:51:00 PM

0 comments Monday, December 10, 2007

December Kick-Off

December 1. A happy night - a concoction counteracting the 'curse' of torture Saturday nights.

Freedom Bar - my sanctuary
noise to drown my thoughts away
depressant
blood*
an apple*
an old flame*
+ a line*
__________________
peace
* breathing

Visually -