Thursday, February 26, 2004

ewan

ewan. i do not know why i feel so low today. i do not really know.

why cant people be fair? a painful truth - we cant make others act towards us the way we want or expect them to. ewan.

we dont get back everything that we give. (yeah right teng, as if you didnt know it before). whatever.

nakakapagod pala talaga.

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/26/2004 03:52:00 PM

0 comments Saturday, February 21, 2004

ok, so ateneo gigs are not that boring after all..

well, i went to a cool one last night. it was a free admission gig dubbed 'granite'. it was led YFC campus, i think, for the gawad kalinga (GK) project. :)

it was one of those -not planned- gimmicks (if that's what you call it. hehe) i went to there with my roomate llane. funny 'cause each of us brought only 20 bucks ( so that we wouldnt be tempted to go to eastwood after). kaso llane left early coz she was already sleepy. i decided not to go with her 'cause i was really determined to hear imago play. i was like, "ok,so never mind watching the gig alone. i dont care if i dont even know how i would go home." it was a good thing on-the-go tara feels like being on-the-go that night so when i texted her to come there, woohhoo, punta naman siya. kewl.

yun, enjoy naman kami pareho. we didnt slam or anything because the mood of the gig was not just that. in fact, we were just sitting down ;) yihee.. i got to watch imago. aia is really a rocker chic. they sang idlip (it sounded like a new version to me) plus other new songs which were quite familiar to me although im not so sure of the titles. i must have heard it last sem sa amp listening room.

ebe is such a funny guy, he has this teasing smile. he was like "ok lang ba kung tutugtog kami ng bagong kanta" he said that pag sa up daw kase, babatuhin sila ng tao." kakakakanta pa lang nila ng mariposa, the crowd would say agad "mariposa ulet?!!!" tsk tsk. demanding crowd.

kris gorra of cambio is the second rocker chic. hehe. her hair was.. ROCK!!! :0 (wrong grammar but it makes sense. konti.) we bought cambio's EP - with the famous DV (divisoria song.) we went backstage to have the CD signed. unfortunately, we werent able to catch kris or ebe. but at least we succesfully 'cornered' diego mapa (bru of jao mapa, hehe, guitarist and vox of cambio) who turned out to be tara's instant crush that night. harhar..

excuse me for the long entries about gigs. hehe. just my passion. :)

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/21/2004 09:17:00 AM

0 comments Friday, February 20, 2004

yehey! i feel quite relieved today that i am done with my defense for my problem-solution essay in english plus the report on political poetry for lit. woohooo.. bawas ng load.

BUT.. BUT.. BUT..

i still have schoolwork (obviouosly,it never ends until summer) to do.. actually, still have lots of them. hehe. i dont know, maybe im not just in the very mood of worrying today. good for me.

im going to lizzie's debut tomorrow, with the rest of the a3 gang. i have a dress to wear but i dont have a shoes yet. i guess i'll probably go to the mall tomorrow and buy a pair of nice strappy sandals. ;) - a pair that i could also use for les' (also my blockmate) FUNKY party come march 6. hindi sayang di ba?

hay, 18th birthdays are everywhere. mine's next month, on the 21st. but i dont have plans yet. they say that turning 18 is one of the most important 'events' in a girl's life -- a major turning point, that is. but what the hell am i gonna do on my 'special' day? aargghh.. i really have no idea. im not demanding a party from my parents really because i really dont want to hold one. it just seems not possible not having most of my friends here in manila. plus, it's the sunday (i guess) before the finals week. how's that -- my guests would bring books with them? hehe. crazy thought.

crazy thoughts.

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/20/2004 01:46:00 PM

0 comments Tuesday, February 17, 2004

hay.. i have been to three consecutive up gigs. im soooo happy. tamang bawi from all the stress from school. hehe.

of the three gigs, the fairday the 13th (kewl title) gig is my favorite, which was held on friday the 13th, as the name of the gig implies. the crowd - the "rockers" slammed really hard, intentionally or unintentionally pushing the other "rockers" in the mosh pit already circled by dust. it was as if these guys (most of them are guys, by the way) were possessed by the hard core and really LOUD music. watching them made me smile and laugh (to myself lang) because for the love of music, fun and rock - these guys really didnt care covering and suffocating themselves with dust.

the gig kicked off with performance by less known or famous bands. but still, everyone seemed to be having fun. the gig just got more intense when greyhoundz started playing "hole" ( a soundtrack for 'the ring' if im not mistaken. ) wooaa, crowd got into madness. i being slightly one of them. hehe) then, something bad yet also exciting happened when the fence (since sunken is an open field, they had to build fences to close the fair area / gig area) collapsed because certain outsiders who wanted to get inside for free - pushed it. the band stopped playing and then this odd-looking guy,in a clown costume [whatever.basta, the host] announced that they had no choice but to stop the gig. naturally, the crowd started getting mad. some were shouting "ibalik ninyo pera namin". , "greyhoundz!greyhoundz!" and some were even showing up their hands in "f*ck you" (hello,it's like the real show was just getting started. other more astigbands havent played yet)

the host kept on telling in a 'diplomatic' way that the crowd should go home. the show is over. blah blah. but the crowd (including us, of course, how can i narrate this if i left already. hehe) just sat, as if having the vibrations that the show is gonna resume. and the crowd wasnt wrong.

after about 15 to 20 minutes, greyhoundz was back on stage. the organizers decided to resume the show in two conditions 1.) those who didnt pay still gets to watch --from the outside; (the fence collapsed na nga so wala nang division but they still shouldnt get over that fence. harhar, labo ba? im telling you, the set-up looked as stupid as it sounds) and 2.) there would be peace and love among those peeps in the moshpit - no harm should be purposely inflicted to one another. after all daw, valentines day na[whatever.

so the fun continued.. chicosci played. ha, my mong.never mind the bad version of e-head's magasin. mong is still the man.. of my dreams. hehe. nyek, one of the men of the dreams, rather. because there came ian tayao of cheese. I LOVE HIM, super. ;) astig ang performance - pasaway na bokalista. he jumped into the audience twice. yun tuloy, he lost his shoe, pero oks lang 'cause he threw his socks and his other shoe eventually, by the way. ultimate rocker. ehem ehem.

ok.. but the drama wasnt over yet. while kamikazee was playing "tsinelas", the vocalist (god, i forgot his name but he used to be my crush.hehe) said "uy, bakit may duguan? ayos ah!". ok.. so the music just died and the odd-looking guy came out again saying that the show is over. and that time, he meant it - the show was finally over.

huhu. imago wasnt able to play.

ok, so this is a gig to remember. the next day, when people asked me how the gig was -- i said "magulo" but i was smiling because because of that "gulo"-

the gig truly rocked. ( in my own definition of rock, that is.)

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/17/2004 03:37:00 PM

0 comments Saturday, February 14, 2004

hay.. i feel so depressed.
i have nowhere to go tonight. my appointment with yeye tonight was cancelled. im supposed to go to the kalay open house. after that, probably we're going to watch the 'wer's d luv' gig, (still part of the up fair). pero hindi nga natuloy. poor teng.

and so im stuck up here in front of this computer, trying to kill time, waiting that a friend would be nice enough to text me and invite to go with him/her somewhere. aargghh. gig, disco, movies, drink, whatever. i just need to do something tonight. ngapala, at least there's a fun thing im doing at this very moment. --stalking through the net. -- i feel quite happy to find some facts (quote; unquote) about him. ye-hey.

but still, im bored. probably this is just to neutralize everything about the extreme fun i had last night at tHE up gig. shet, so many stories to tell about that. next time probably, im not in the mood.

i can sense another poem in the making. talk about down days, down nights.

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/14/2004 07:07:00 AM

0 comments Friday, February 13, 2004

ateneans by day; iskolars by night

last night kase, we went to "sisfire II" gig in UP as part of the week-long UP fair. we just felt like we all need to reward ourselves after our math long tests. hay..

we had a blast. at first, everyone was just sitting. kami, nang-ookray ng mga bands, hehe. our apologies to the vocalist who had a lisp. we were very mean to him. swear. we also occasionally were glancing at the projector beside the stage showing the ad of frenzy (the party condoms). kare and i were trying to investigate (what-a-term) the relations between the sponsors of the gig (frenzy, smint, jergens).hehe, we arrived at a conclusion that all of the sponsors promote sex. dont try to know why. baliw lang talaga kami. ang weird kase hindi ba, school activity, ang sponsor condom. anyway.. i also made ngapala a very stupid remark. kare said that frenzy has a party pack consisting of 25 condoms. i said "pano yung isa?" ok.. tangengots

when jay-r (yes, jay-r, the r-n-b guy) came out onstage, the crowd just automatically stood up, came nearer the stage, screamed, blah blah so you get the picture. hehhe, we did the same thing. (harhar) the three of us were laughing at ourselves because we didnt expect we would scream like that, kikiligin, eh, we know we are not into jay-r naman.

the next bands who played are ok. i have a crush on egay from the hourglass. (first name basis, shet, we're close) hehe. i think he's old already, early 20s? but his hair is KEWL. ha, dread locks plus he's multi-talented. (from college of music ba naman eh!) when the mongols played, kare and i shouted "dr. stockmann! dr. Stockmann" at yani(?), the bassist (*since he plays dr. stockmann at the an enemy of the gates play in school.*) too bad he didnt notice us because he was busy smoking onstage. :p we've noticed that the yani rockstar is way different from yani as dr. stockmann.hehe. ( syempre naman!) makes me wonder how he is like in real life. hhmm..

this is what i love about UP. the gigs are kewl. i've only been to around 3 gigs there but i can definitely say that the gigs there are way better and alive than the gigs here at school. I LOVE UP! HA, i wanna transfer there. kidding. my reason would be senseless, if ever.it's basically because of the gigs. i dont go to school to watch gigs.

so, since we (o ako lang siguro) cant decide whether we/i are/am (KULET..) atenista or isko. we declare ourselves (nobody else can declare eh so we do it ourselves. hehe) :

---ateneans by day; iskolars by night ----- :P

woopsss.. sorry for the sabog entry. i only had 2 1/2 hours of sleep from the usual 5 1/2.

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/13/2004 06:09:00 PM

0 comments Thursday, February 12, 2004

well, this week is almost over. woohoo.. ( is there a reason to be happy?)

some things to be thankful for:

thank god we're done with our math exams. goodbye for a while to those counting techniques, permutations whatever. (for a while, because we still need those permutations and combinations blah blah when the finals comes. arrgghh.)

thank god we're done with our feng shui reporting for pinoy. being part of the first batch of reporters has advantages, i just realize. PLUS ; we had a cool pre-valentine party for our pinoy class pa rin dubbed(hehe) "UVE" (ultimate valentines experience - according to jay) na kinontra ni trina, "UBE" daw (ultimate balentimes experience). anyway,it doesnt matter what it's really called but the important thing is that we had fun.it was a simple yet quite unconventional activity for a college class (parang pang-high school kase eh! :)). there was an obvious scripted planado (hehe) dating game. KULET.. ; an open mike (without a mike) / poetry reading and a two-song jamming session, care of the og-uhog band (les on guitars, carlo p kahon/k'hon (basta yun!) and chuckie wackie [tawag nila kay chuck, i dunno why) on vocals) why og-uhog? well, it was the title of the short story for children our pinoy teacher wrote. hehe. very creative. PLUS.. PLUS the pastillas overload care of isay and carlo who reported on how to make pastillas. :)

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/12/2004 04:30:00 PM

0 comments Wednesday, February 11, 2004

February 14 is approaching. Although a certain part of history claims that this day is actually a bloody day or a day of murder, still, people cannot just refrain from the common tradition of celebrating this day. Feb 14 spells out a day of love – of roses, flowers, chocolates, of shy smiles, of music, of color, of wonder.

Lovers in particular are always looking forward to this day because this is another time of the year when they would be extra sweeter and more expressive to each other. Torpe guys also wait patiently for this day so because they seem to find something in this day that gives them extra courage to let out those hidden and probably even repressed (hehe) emotions. The day of hearts brings an air of joy - a feeling of natural highness that only those who actually feel it can describe it.

however, that just looking at the other side of it. while those who have their 'special someone' have those sweet smiles plastered on their faces, those who arent lucky or blessed enough to have that 'special someone' (at least before feb 14) have this feeling of emptiness. the day of hearts highlights further this emptiness that some might say that could be filled by presence of families and friends. yes, it is true that the collective love from family and friends is way more important and lasting than the kind of love of one gets from a girlfriend or a boyfriend. BUT, we are talking here of love in its many forms. and i think that we all want to experience being loved in different levels; in different intensities.

from the tone of the preceding paragraph, i assume you get it from which group i belong. to be honest, yes, i feel sad. i feel there's something lacking in me. it's as if there's something that i have been missing in my young years. i keep telling myself to wait. and that's the only thing to do - WAIT.

waiting is painful and tiring - especially if you're in the gray - uncertain if there really is something or somebody worth waiting for. what's even more painful is that if you're waiting for this certain person to feel the same way as you do. it's like everything is blank. your senses dont seem to work - you cant see, you cant hear, you cant feel any hint of this person's feelings towards you.

excuse me for giving out such overly sentimental thoughts. others might find the things ive said exagerrated. i think it is no longer i who is speaking - but my soul's painful experience.
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Valentine’s day is coming, by the way – a good excuse to be mushy and baduy.

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/11/2004 04:09:00 PM

0 comments Sunday, February 08, 2004

a bad weekend

today is my cousin reno's birthday. i've heard that they ate out somewhere. too bad i wasnt able to come my day is freakin' loaded. shet, what a saturday.

i had my nstp, all the way to las pinas. from katips to las pinas then back to katips. that's from 6:45 am to 1230 pm. by 2, i had to watch a two-and-a-half-hour long play that is 'semi-required' for our lit class. i was planning to go to las pinas nga sana to meet up with reno and the rest of the gang but i decided not to since tapos naman na sila by 4 pm.

today, too bad i cant hear mass. my excuse is not so reasonable but.. basta. i had to finish something. aargghh,i hate this weekend. i want to watch a movie or several movies such as mona lisa smile (the movie i've been waiting since late last year to be shown here); the cheap yet quality 'a bit beyond cheap' thriller movie jay is talking about and the -i-forgot-the-title- (something with the word sister o "the other sister" according to ktl. hehe) movie ktl and trish recommend. i wanna go to the mall but i just cant - im stuck up at the dorm trying to start writing my problem-solution essay and reviewing for the math long test.

ha, OC tendencies. im just trying to finish things because i dont wanna miss the UP gigs, especially the friday the 13th gig. i cant miss that.

sorry about my useless entries these past few days. i'll write more sensible posts next time. promise :)

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/08/2004 03:24:00 PM

0 comments Wednesday, February 04, 2004

half-relieved, half-stressed

hay... i feel so relieved today. di ba nga, i had to do so many things to do. my day was so packed and im soooo glad the day's almost over. [ the hell day and not the hell week. ggrrr] i'm done with the test run. i made it in 26.40 minutes within the cut-off time of 30 minutes. ha! muntik na! i've submitted the proposals for english. lester [my partner for the reporting for fil] and i have already settled on our topic. [although im not sure if our topic is interesting enough but bahala na

the major problem left would be my POETRY class. shit, i so hate it. it's not because the subject sucks but because i suck at it. it seems i wasnt given the POWER to analyze poems. every poetry class, it's as if my brain is being taken out of my skull. it is being crushed and thrown out of the window. i cant picture who has been doing this to me every session but i could hear him saying "ha! useless brains who cant understand poem deserve this." shit. shet. shoot. out of the window.

i dont wanna fail my poetry class. i dont wanna fail my poetry class. uy, repetition, a strategy in poetry. i hope it makes sense. i hope i was able to communicate that i REALLY dont wanna fail my poetry class.

ok, i must go back to google and do away with my research on political poetry. [it's for our group reporting btw]

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/04/2004 04:11:00 PM

0 comments Tuesday, February 03, 2004

Wooaa.. I can’t imagine being able to read THREE physics books this weekend. Ooppss, dont think that im a physics goddess wannabe. It’s just that I feel the utmost NEED to read. I was really having a hard time ‘getting’ those physical concepts and I don’t want to flunk the exam. Whatever. But I have a confession to make – I just read it and not READ it. I must admit I didn’t still get most of the lessons. huhu, bad trip Tsk tsk, stupid. Hehe, just laugh it off, teng.

Hay naco, physics makes me love chemistry more (or is it my chemistry class last sem?hehe) I miss MO, (the pipac master) hehe. I miss YU (cooking master boy). and I miss giggles and hirits of the a3 chem people ( mga pasaway sa likod ng klase ). In our physics class kase this sem, it is not advisable para magkulitan because we have to glue our eyes on the board. Our teacher just writes the lecture the whole period [ I mean it.] Arrgggh.. we’ve got to listen to the writings on the board. (harhar..) He writes lectures fast so just a sec of not looking at the board and you’re doomed – it’s not gonna be easy catching up.

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amidst the stressful weekend, two things made me smile:

-- I got to be with [ehem ehem]. Attention is sweet although I know there’s nothing special to it. sad. (half-smile lang pala)
--- my tita teret already got me the USB cable for my phone. Yippee!! Hopefully, I’ll get it by Wednesday. I can’t wait to download my pictures, free my phone’s pictures inbox and take MORE pictures; download pictures, free my phone’s inbox, take MORE pictures, download.. hehe, kulet. And the cycle continues.. J

sobrang sabog ko today. im so tired of those proposals . there's no week without submission of a proposal shit. [good luck]

Posted by tengcorrea at 2/03/2004 04:20:00 PM

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beer ko 'to!

I just wanna share this another version of the “coke ko to” ad thing. It was sent to me through text by veejay, a high school buddy [ specifically a drinking buddy…J] here’s how it goes:

Eto ang beer, sabay-sabay (??) this part’s quite confusing
Eto ang beer lahat tagay
Pabilis nang pabilis
Tagay mo, wag mamimiss – I changed this
Shot ko na?!
O shot mo na?
San Miguel;
Nahihilo, nalilito
Lasing na ito
Beer ko to (3x)

Hehe.. gago eh ano? :/ Anyway, llane and I are still in the process of ‘composing’ two other versions of that - the laundry boy version and the tita pin (our dorm mother) version. Hehe. medyo mean nga lang. hehe. a long long story.