Wednesday, May 31, 2006
introducing.. my g2g friends, and my reddish brown hair :)
with my potential drunking buddy AYATaken (using her cam) inside the Pineda-Lazaro-Ebreo room with the amazing (hey, "amazing" is a Smart term, hehe) whiteboard that prints out what you write on it :)
with our Totoy Bibo SEPTaken during our GTalk with speaker Paul Tan-Chi
(and by the way, also potential drunking buddy 2)
with my loveteam manager ROMEL
(haha, just kidding with the title)
Taken in his work station in WBP, Globe Plaza 1. Aya, Pepe and I were department-hopping then.
By the way, he's another pasaway. so i shall call him potential drunking buddy 3.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/31/2006 02:56:00 PM
"fucks" number
(whew.. the title is disturbing. hehe)anyway.
darn. i just had an OJT blooper.
i was calling someone from a hotel and was supposed to say "fax" but i god damnit said "fu.." alright. alright, i paused. tsk tsk.. hmm.. buti nga sa akin! ba't kasi paarte pa ako? haha.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/31/2006 02:15:00 PM
_
sometimes, i have to give up on loving someone who doesn't love me back, not because i start to feel i'm hopeless, but because i run out of reasons to fight for what i really feel.(this what he 'said'.)
it is funny how often people give up on me. The 'reason' they always give me is even funnier.
They say they want me to be happy.They let go of me so i could go to another person who they believe could make me happy. They're very good friends, you see? They know what I myself don't.
But now, I know the real 'reason'. It's the reason of having no more reasons.
When they say they want me to be happy, i should have known they were just trying to be nice. They just want a graceful exit in one's life.
It's the reason of having no more reasons. I am not a reason enough.
How stubborn can i be, ha? How ugly? And how pathetic?
shit. I shouldnt sound this bitter. It makes everything funnier.
***
this is how i like to put it (to a certain extent)
sometimes, i have to give up on loving someone who doesn't love me back, because i start to feel i'm hopeless.
again, it is funny how without giving me reasons, other people can make me believe that there's a beautiful story between us, that there's something to remember, or hold on to.
:) a beautiful story i have no way of sharing with him; a memory i have no way of confirming whether it really happened; moments which keep on coming back to me (rather, which i keep on reenacting in my head) - but most probably not to him.
from the very beginning, i know all of these. but i keep on silently believing because i don't rely on reasons. (at least, those reasons that come from him)
so there's nothing he could do or could be to make me run out of reasons. But i lose hope.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/29/2006 10:39:00 AM
hot water
i am currently drinking an unstirred cup of coffee.i run out of those disposable plastic forks (yep, that was what i have been using to stir my coffee); i forgot to bring my spoon from the dorm; and there is no stirrer in sight. so i trust that the hot water would just melt all the particles to give me just the right amount of bitterness.
beyond my coffee - i badly need my hot water now. something, someone, some act to melt away everything. i just want to disappear. I wish i could cry it all out and drown in my own tears. i wish i could scream and drown in my own voice so i couldnt hear myself - my questions and my invented answers, which i later on doubt.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/29/2006 10:04:00 AM
a crap entry
yesterday, i, together with my parents, my brother, my cousin myco (who looks like mikee of pbb teen :) ) and lolo, went to the newly opened sm mall of asia. (haha, what an intro. sounds very interesting, haha. as if a warning for a crap entry){thanks if you dare read beyond this point, haha}
oh well, as those who have been there say, it is a BIG mall, (and yeah, i agree). we only walked around the north wing, or a floor or two of the north wing; but i felt god damn tired. or maybe it was because i was really sleepy; or maybe it was the way the people there were moving. (i realized it can be very annoying when people were strolling in groups. [although i am guilty of this sometimes])
Haay.. I want to write something that makes sense about yesterday, such as:
- the cool conversation i had with my lolo yesterday about Henry Sy (I guess you get already why we were talking about him :);
- the artistas we saw yesterday at the mall since ASAP had a show there;
- our 15-sec fame - as we were exiting the parking lot, our car was sandwiched by a mob of fanatics. {daanan kasi yun nung mga umaalis na artista, haha)
..BUT for some reason, Im not in the mood today. I dont know what I want to do, what I want to write about, I dont fucking even know how I want to feel. The bigger problem is: I have so many to do's today, this week actually: Regcom. my class sked next sem. the badminton tournament later. The intern's graduation - the AVP (shet. stress na naman) and what im gonna wear. shet.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/29/2006 09:23:00 AM
why smoking is dangerous
Smoking is dangerous not because it is bad for one's health..but because you'll never know when a car might just crash on you.
I dont know much of the details but this Saturday, there took place what they call here in Globe a bungee car-jumping. No, it isnt an annual celebration or whatever; but an accident.
A car fell down from the Parking Lot to the Bridgeway, where most Globe employee smokers hang out.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/28/2006 06:24:00 PM
"let's talk light"
BirthdaysTwo people from our department - emil and bai - are celebrating their birthdays next week but as early as this afternoon, we had yema rolls (yum!) and cake to 'advance celebrate' it. (barok ampota)
haha, my CMS friends actually keep on telling me that what i'll miss in this department when i leave are their mini-parties. Last time, we had those yum raviolli (? haha, that's pasta, right? loser, i dont know), some meat, and some bread with the yummy dip. (isnt it funny that I dont even know what I was eating.) The next day after that, we had a caramel cake from Martia, since she resigned from work.
For this afternoon, hayy.. sugar rush. (haha, notice how hyper this entry is compared to my post this morning!)
***
Reg Blues
I kept myself busy this afternoon fixing my schedule for next sem as our registration is on the 8th of june already. there, i checked the class skeds (yey, finally, it's available online ); texted people asking about profs who are 'ok' (haha. define "ok"); and decided somehow who im getting.
Im worried however with my random number. It's 265, and so far, that's the farthest random number I have. whew.. Since technically, Im still part of Regcom, I believe it is still possible for me to register early but Im not so sure about that. I just feel guilty since Im not helping out with marketing (that's my committee, by the way); i wasnt able to serve last reg; and most probably, i wouldnt be able to attend the prep days next week. Haay.. should i resign or should i wait for them to kick me out? darn.
***
Family
im expecting my parents tomorrow. tito bon sing died, i heard, so maybe we're paying a visit over the weekend. Im sorry for sounding casual about it - he's a relative, i suppose but i havent met him, (tsk tsk.. baka multohin ako nito.)
***
i miss..
.. our late night chats, the "talaga" and the "di ba?", that dance, the laughter,the happiness and the unexplainable sadness that goes with it, with him.
i remember the text message tal and i was reading last night- "while good things never last, some dont even start" :'( .
***
haay... "let's talk light" but why am i talking about this?! sshhhet.
nothing. (i miss this as well). whew. isnt it weird that talking about him (even if these are sad thoughts) makes me smile still..
is it him, or is it me? (shet. crazy mode)
and by the way, my other friend still ignores me. most likely, he's so busy" bonding" with his new circle. but honestly, as i say this, this isnt the sad Teng speaking. it must be the sugar.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/26/2006 05:15:00 PM
what's with orange?!
| Your Hair Should Be Orange |
 |
| Your Mood Ring is Orange |
 |
Mood Ring Generator
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/26/2006 09:47:00 AM
drift
drift: float, be in motion due to some air or water current
In a real sense, we all drift.
First, we were drifting alone; then when we meet another drifter and we drift together. And inevitably, sooner or later we drift apart. Or one drifts away from the other.
And such movement is due to some force we cannot fully control. I am not just talking about God's hands working or destiny or any supernatural power that seems to determine the circumstances in this world. It can be the other drifter that chooses not to fight the current, chooses to just let it all be.
***
I was talking with Tal this morning and I told her how 'sad' I am these days because most of the people who are important to me just seem so distant.
They are all drifting away from me. Whatever current they are riding - whether they choose it or not, it is beyond me.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/26/2006 09:00:00 AM
anesthesia
if people only know what numbs them, the world would be a happier place.but there is no such anesthesia. because people, as long as they live, feel - whether they like it or not, whether they understand it or not.
if people only know what numbs them, the world would be a happier place.
the above statement is true only for people who think right now that the only feelings they have are the ones that hurt. but if one thinks about it, if a person becomes numb, he wouldnt realize his world had gone happier.
what we need maybe is a pain reliever. but what if one does not even know what his pain reliever is?
what if it is not that happy food? what if it is not that gadget he forever has been wanting to buy? what if it is not that new look he thought could change the old pessimistic him? what if it is not that person he thought he ever wanted?
then he would rather be numb. he'd rather die.
_
i no longer know what makes this less. i want this all gone.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/25/2006 04:54:00 PM
headache
waahh.. i feel like my head is gonna crack.since this morning, i have been calling hotels (4 lang yun ah pero harassed na ako) - asking for their hotel room rates, meeting room packages, availability of the rooms.
i had a super heavy lunch and i guess that didnt really help because i feel so bloated now and sleepy because of the carbs.
darn. my hobby really is ranting.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/25/2006 03:23:00 PM
what bored people do
LAST...:x: movie you rented: elephant
:x: movie you bought: 20, 30, 40 (a chinese film)
:x: song you listened to: ge giu (from full house)
:x:song that was stuck in your head: Ill never get over you getting over me
:x: cd you bought: not into buying CDs anymore
:x: person you've called: someone from Intercon Manila
:x: person that's called: sep
:x: person you've hugged: tal
:x: person you've hit: sep (not the one that hurts ha!)
:x: person you've fought with: veejay
:x: tv show you've watched: tv patrol world (last Saturday)
:x: class you went to: (haha, this was last sem, right?), my Consumer Research class, I guess
DO...
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else: yep, in another asian country (hahaha.)
:x: you believe in online dating: nope. (no offense to those who do)
:x: others find you attractive: some, maybe (haha, that sounds like sam milby. I don’t like him, just to make it clear)
:x: you want more piercings: yes yes.. I want a stud on my nose. just a dot small shining metal there). And another on my ear
:x: you drink: hell yeah. Haha, kidding. But yes, I do.
:x: you do drugs: hell no. (haha)
:x: you smoke: only when im alone (because I dont even know if you call that smoking)
:x: you write in cursive or print: now, mostly in print
:x: you carry a donor card: nope.
:x: you believe in long distance relationships: hard but not impossible.
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: using someone: against. I'll never do this (intentionally)
:x: killing people: against!
:x: teenage smoking: I have nothing against it, but Im not for it as well
:x: driving drunk: against. (dont drink and drive. If you want to get wasted, dont bring your car.)
:x: gay/lesbian relationship: nothing against it
:x: soap operas: i have nothing against it. it entertains people :p before, i used to watch some when I was in high school. :p
FAVORITE...
:x: food: tuna sandwich. Any burger. Jolibees coffee jelly. Time-out chocolate bites (haha, im inventing terms.). junk food.
:x: song: Full House OST (I think I and ge giu); parokyas halaga (one of their ‘old’ songs)
:x: thing to do: now? update this blog (isnt it obvious); listen to music; after work, just lie down and close my eyes (bahala na if I fall asleep with my contact lenses on again. tsk tsk..)
:x: thing to talk about: haha, secret. My boylets. Complaints about my self and my life
:x: sports: nada
:x: drink: alcoholic? Beer; non-alcoholic? Coffee and C2 lite
:x: movies: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, White Oleander, Finding Nemo, Almost Famous
:x: X-men: im really not into X-men but since my power allocation accor to g2g friends is Jean Grey (ok, she's my favorite now )
:x: saying: aanhin mo ang bahay na bato kung nakatira ay kuwago, but pa ang bahay kubo, sa paligid, puno ng linga. (hehe)
:x: disney movie: Is Finding Nemo a Disney movie? (haha. sorry)
:x: scent: paradiso
:x: word: cute, ye, and hehe
:x: nickname: teng, my one and only nickname
:x: guy name: Brad (haha, I am not a Brad Pitt fan ha)
:x: girl name: Tamara, Danielle
:x: eye color: light brown
:x: piercing: nose
:x: class: classes. my past Philo classes
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy: haha, yep.
:x: ever lied to someone: yep
:x: ever been in a fist fight: never. (looking forward to a fist fight, though. macho :p)
:x: ever been arrested: nope. (im a law abiding person, as of today, haha)
:x: ever eaten frog legs: nope (boring. I want to try)
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty: no
:x: funny: it depends on the audience (some people find the centipede jokes and the surname jokes funny :p. cool people, haha )
:x: hot: nope ( I remember someone telling me I dont look like a communications major because comm majors are hot.. which means that.. (you get it.)
:x: friendly: it depends. (haha, how can one’s friendliness depend on other factors?!)
:x: ugly: I have really bad angles. Maybe not ugly but plain (and that could mean ugly to other people)
:x: loveable: I dont know. I wish I am. *wink*
:x: pessimistic: a resounding yes..
:x: optimistic: very rarely
:x: caring: yep. To people who are important to me
:x: sweet: sometimes (but maybe, very few people feel that)
:x: dorky: hmm, I think I am.
:x: stubborn: yes *shamed*
:x: random: I dont get this, haha. but I do like to post random stuff in my blog. I do have random thoughts. So thats a yes, I think.
RANDOM..
:x: spell your name backwards: Kristina Chua Correa – Aerroc Auch Anitsirk (coolness. It is AAA. Is this german? haha)
:x: story behind your s/n: serial number? haha. nickname? When I was born, it was 12 noon, so the church bell rang – “teng teng teng”. s-ur n-ame? correa - i dont know. i dont have any korean blood. *wink*
:x: are you straight: hmm.. yep
:x: where do you live: Africa Compound :p
DESCRIBE YOUR...
:x: wallet: predominantly black, but with colorful swirls
:x: hairbrush: it’s a gray denman comb with three 'rows' of teeth (shet. Whatever. I suck at giving description)
:x: toothbrush: a toothbrush.. haha. pink and white, house in a semi-transparent pink case
:x: jewelery worn daily: my 3 anklets which I don’t take off; earrings.. and my yellow beads ring which symbolizes my engagement to myself, haha
:x: pillow cover: right now, its the bright green one
:x: blanket: a blanket. Haha, I cant remember.
:x: coffee cup: the one in the dorm: with the cowPIG print; the one hear in the office: a really cute one: my mouse-y – light blue; the cover is the head of a mouse, with pink cheek dots, then the cup itself is round, like the body of a fat mouse holding a piece of cheese :P
:x: sunglasses: hmm, it is blue, its frame is square, not much tint
x: shoes: now, it is the Artwork flat abaca sandals with white flower detail
:x: hair: reddish brown and straight (but not as straight as before) and frizzy (darn.) and a 'volumized'
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)...
:x: in my mouth: nothing. (the last ‘thing’ that was in it? Water.)
:x: in my head: what is fucking wrong with him?!
:x: wishing: to go home
:x: talking to: no one
:x:eating: nothing (but I had my Spanish bread earlier)
:x: fetishes: malay
:x: person you wish you could see right now: him.
:x: next to you: a big printer thats not working, and a box of scratch papers
:x: something you're looking forward to this month: this weekend (hopefully, I get to rest.)
:x: you are deathly afraid of: seeing a friend leave.
:x: do you like candles: so-so.. I like the gel ones.
:x: do u like hot wax: haha, weird. I dont get this.
:x: do you believe in love: yes. :p
:x: do you believe in soul mates: no
:x: do you believe in love at first sight: no. but I believe it is possible to love someone who you dont know that well. (haha, may pahabol pa eh)
:x: do you believe in forgiveness: yes
:x: do you believe in God: yes
:x: who is your worst enemy: not a person really – the feeling of being sleepy when I don’t yet want to or I have to finish something
:x: what is the latest you've ever stayed up: june last year, I was awake for 24 x 2 hours
:x: can you eat with chopsticks: yes, but I just learned recently
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/24/2006 02:28:00 PM
fun
Taken during Globe's Bizcon in Island Cove, late 2006Haha. I look stupid here, I swear. Really funny. my god, very few people make fun of themselves. (and by posting this pic here, i am one of them)
I forgot if I or someone else blindfolded me but as you can see, Im like a screaming promo material of the Globe program, :p
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/24/2006 02:09:00 PM
fast forward
would the 21st of march be a happy birthday?would my graduation be a rainy day?
(people come and go; and somehow, i know when he is going.)
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/24/2006 10:24:00 AM
scared to go back
empty hallways. empty benches.
These are pictures I took last last semester for my Video Production class for our still picture music video. Hmm.. I am just thinking that in a bit less than a month's time, I'll be going back to school (classes resume on the 19th of june.)Hay.. quite soon, I will be seen again along EDSA walk, looking at the org boards, reading announcements i have nothing to do with, all by myself most of the time.
These days, I often complain about my every day here in the office. But I don't think I want to go back to school either. I feel it is more than the 'waaahh_bitin-ang-bakasyon-ko!' syndrome of most students. There is something about school that scares me.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/23/2006 02:11:00 PM
Full House
The Cast of Full House ^_^
ang kulit.
I dont know what effect they were trying to achieve here. but still, they all are cute. (Haha, i noticed how much i abuse the word "cute" these days. )
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/23/2006 01:00:00 PM
Da Vinci Code
.. continuation of my post yesterday.the seating arrangement:
tal and i sandwiched ryan - haha, an arrangement which i think was best because he needed us to translate since of course, there were no korean subtitles. but i doubt it if we were really of help to him. The safe answer: "The movie really is complicated."
I myself who have read the book got confused. So i can imagine the difficulty our korean friends had in understanding the movie. For one, as I've mentioned, the movie was in English, with no Korean subtitles (although some English subtitles I think helped somehow).
Second, in their Bible, there was no mention (according to them) of Mary Magdalene. So they confuse the girl as the Virgin Mary. That would make things more controversial. Imagine the mother made pregnant by her own son. (ssshhh.. gives me the creeps)
Third, the relationships between the characters are complicated. I mean, it is hard to explain to them that he is the protagonist or the antagonist so he's doing this or that. Whew.. Even the word "traitor" is hard to explain. I remember myself answering this way when Ryan asked what the bishop means when he said "he betrayed us"
Teng: the guy.. before.. a friend, pretending to be good to them, but now, no longer a friend. not good to them.. traitor.. do you know?
haha, so barok.
He kept on giving me this "huh? what? look" and so i would say:
Teng: Just think of it this way.. they are trying to find the secret.. the solution. so they follow clues.
tang-ina. hehe, but really, some might think it can be very annoying when someone keeps on asking you questions while watching a movie but it was just really ok with me then. :) i just hope the people beside me then didnt really curse me because i was noisy.
On a more 'serious' note..
I think the movie is 'so-so'. For some reason, it didnt keep my interest the way the book did.
Tom Hanks' acting was bland, flat. The way he delivered his lines is just so boring that he didnt seem to communicate the expertise Robert Langdon has with symbols and codes.
The actress portraying (dont know her name) Sophia Neveu ate him alive during their scenes together. Maybe, it is her accent, or the grace and beauty of a brunette. The actor portraying Teabing, I think, was also good. His eyes express perfectly that of a kind traitor.
It is an advantage for those who made the movie that Dan Brown made use of real, existing structures. So they dont have to build such for the movie. Plus, it makes the scenes in the movie 'closer' to that in the book.
I guess those who havent read the book would appreciate it more (as in other books being made into movies). OR maybe, those who have just read the book recently.
[hmm.. that was a bad review. hehe, sorry.]
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/23/2006 10:54:00 AM
50 random things about me
1. My nickname is Teng because when I was born, it was 12 noon and the bell in our town's church rang.. "Teng Teng Teng". (haha :p)2. I cannot swim.
3. I cannot ride the bike.
4. But considering 3 and 4, before, I wanted to surf. (haha, good luck for someone who has no swimming and balancing skills. Haha, there' s just something about the dry 'sun-stained' hair and and dark tanned skin that i find cool about those who surf :p)
5. My childhood idol is Donna Cruz. During my late elementary days, I was cutting pictures of her in magazines, tabloids; and pasting these on a notebook i lamely call a movie book. I even include captions like "Ang ganda ganda mo talaga, donna!" yikes.
6. Coffee makes me feel sleepy - that is, the first hour after drinking it.
7. I used to collect Tweety stuff.
8. Cinderella was my favorite cartoon character. (hehe)
9. Two bottles of beer can get me tipsy but I believe hard drinks can't (get me drunk). :p
10. For a sem, I was on a super crash diet, eating only 4-5 pieces of hopia and an apple per day.
11. I am a certified nail biter. (I dont use a nail cutter to cut my hand nails.)
12. I only learned to use a lighter 3 years ago.
13. My first plane ride was when i was in fourth year high school on a trip to Cebu for a campus journalism press conference. (of course, i took the window seat! :))
14. I didnt get my vaccine (the one I think everyone is supposed to have). I was supposed to get when I was in Grade 1 but i told my teacher that my father (who is a doctor) would do it for me (of course, i was lying. i was just really scared).
15. I dont like sports. PE is one of my most dreaded subjects.
16. I had my hair rebonded once in an unknown parlor, but I was happy because it lasted for 2 years!
17. I want to kill whoever invented the standards for corporate attire.
18. I love the Korean drama Full House that i can watch it over and over and over and over again... The songs on its OST are my happy songs. ^_^
19. I had my TGIS and G-mik days. :)
20. I can finish a Gardenia half-loaf of wheat bread in one sitting. (or is it seating? haha, nakakahiya.)
21. I fell asleep while watching a Lord of the Rings movie; havent read any of the books. I also slept while watching a Harry Potter movie; stopped reading the book after reading two sentences.
22. I only know how to cook pancit canton. I cant even cook rice :(
23. I dont touch (literally) my guitar these days. The thought of not really being good at playing frustrates me.
24. I know a Korean song - Gomsemaree ga han jib... (haha, three bears. from Full House again. ^_^)
25. I had 'something' with a bassist, a vocalist, and a lead guitarist (not at the same time, huh :) 0. Hmm.. I am currently waiting for a drummer. Haha, kidding. (isa na lang, banda na :P)
26. I had a shih tzu dog named Dino (Xanadu Chip) but he is gone now :'c.
27. When I was around 6 or 7, I was collecting salagubangs; and when they die, there would be a funeral. Their dead bodies would rest in peace inside a medicine box.
28. There is something about black rats that I find cute. I actually dont find them disgusting. Maybe it is the eyes. :p
29. I love yellow roses most.
30. My ideal wedding would be on a beach - to be attended only by the people closest to me.
31. When i was in kindergarten, I always sang "Ikaw ang Tumibok ang Puso" during our morning program.
32. My childhood ambition is to become a teacher; and as i always write in our essays, "so that i can teach children to read, write and count. (haha, i was just trying to make the essay long)
33. My Grade 5 or 6 barkada was called Spice Girls (I was Baby Spice) but since we were seven, one had to be the manager and the other, the producer. tsk tsk.
34. I want to celebrate my birthday in Enchanted Kingdom :) Haha, maybe im too old for this now.
35. I would like to have two kids in the future - one boy and one girl.
36. I see dead people. (im just kidding :p)
37. I hate reading manuals. Not surprising I dont maximize the use of the gadgets I have.
38. My contact lens once cracked while i was wearing it. (I remember it was during a Youth for Christ conference in Subic.)
39. Ever since I got into college, I only brush my teeth twice a day. (oopps.. turn off).
40. I tend to speak fast when I am nervous.
41. I recently just had my hair dyed - reddish brown. because i cannot get curls due to a previous relaxing. darn.
42. I have never been to another country. (ehem ehem)
43. I dont know how to eat shrimp or crab. So complicated how to 'open' these.
44. My favorite number is 3. I dont know why.
45. I only used YM last year; and it was because I had no choice because it was for a school project meeting.
46. I'd rather get cancer than a sore throat.
47. I can drive. (i wish). Rather, i can run a car. No, I can drive but I dont have the bravery to go out into the real world. (so how's that? should i request for my own road? hehe)
48. I didnt attend my high school graduation. (as a protest because my family and i do not believe in the school's system of deliberation. )
49. In high school, I was the vocalist of an all-girl band. The Cranberries' Zombie was an all-time favorite cover song.
50. I never had my own bedroom. sad :(
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/23/2006 09:58:00 AM
2 : 4 and an unusual weekend gimmick
2 is to 4. haha. i had my weekend "gimmick" yesterday with tal, and 4 koreans. (yep, that was what i meant with 2:4)i am not sure if i have mentioned it here already but for the past months, the dorm where i am staying is being managed by a korean family. (hehe, maybe now you understand why my previous entries speak of korean stuff! :) ) that means that we've been living together under the same roof for months as well but we barely have the time to 'bond' - just Hi's everytime we bump into each other and recently, a semi-forced every Wed gathering to listen to the words, pray, and share (a forum, as they call it).
but yesterday, i spent 6 hours of my boring life bonding with the koreans! cool. :) Tal and I were with Sara (omma); Joshua (appa); Aubrey / Ji Hae (not related to them; a tall Korean girl who's into music); and our barkada Ryan / Dong-Hee (not related to them also; a tall Korean guy who's into Libis and 'secrets'. :p
The original plan was that Tal, Ryan and I (since we were a bit closer to him than to any other Korean in the dorm) would go watch Da Vinci Code. But Ryan told us that Sara wanted to go watch with us, and of course, that was ok. So riding two separate cabs, the 6 of left the dorm at around 5.
Gateway Cinema Lobby.
whew.. tal and i didnt expect that the line would be that long. and even if around 80% of the cinemas there were alloted to the Da Vinci, wahh, tix for the 7-ish screenings were being sold out quite fast.
we lined up, hoping to avail of the remaining 20 slots for the next 'earliest to time; screenings but we ended up getting tickets for the 8:15 screening.
Haha. Just a side story: the ticket counter guy thought i am below 18. haha, oh well. tal said it must be my kiddie watch. :p
Ok. Step One accomplished: to buy tickets.
but we had another problem: what to do for the next two hours while waiting for the screening.
Eat.
a good idea, indeed. because everyone (whatever race) likes to eat; and what is the universal food?
pizza. Sara had her palm card so i think we availed of the Buy one, Take one promo thing. We had to wait for it for about 30 minutes or more (and that didnt feel alright, i tell you, because we were all very hungry), but it was ok, since each of us got 2 slices, at the least :)
We had a small chat while eating, intruding into the private lives of Sara and Joshua (their love story); and a bit of Tal's (hehe); then right after eating (and i mean to emphasize "right after" since we didnt even rest), we went to..
Timezone.
imagine that. i dont go there with my friends nowadays. but i was there yesterday with koreans. haha. i think it was so cute for sara and joshua to go with us there. they even played basketball, haha, while tal and i played our favorite 'hit-the-crocos' game (haha, i invented that. a good game to release tension, anger) and the win-every-time dream catcher effect (win every time because even if you dont get a stuffed toy [and of course, 99.9% you won't], you get candies - 5 pcs of candies :P.
we also used our powertickets to get our friendship balls :). tal and i both got pink ones, with a yellow fish inside; while ryan got a pink one also (im not sure) but with a blue bear, because he doesnt like fish-ee.. [ that's how they pronounce kase]
To Cinema 2
again, we had to line up - but not for too long plus no pressure since our seats were reserved anyway.
***
.. Wah. i'd write about the movie in my next entry. haha, i just lost my momentum; plus i have to call some people. (haha, i must remember i'm in the office now.. and im blogging, tsk tsk)
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/22/2006 01:45:00 PM
just
I have a friend, and I am proud.. and happy ^_^tal: seriously, thanks.. di ako matatapos kung i-enumerate ko..
tal: teng, salamat din.. not only sa isang night pero sa napakadaming nights na may kasama ako sa aking psycho tendencies! hehe..
teng: tal thanks last night, kk
you might be wondering why i am posting this here (by the way, it is something i got from her tagboard).
.."just". it is good to find reasons why we do certain things; why we feel this or that way; why fate allows certain circumstances to happen; and all the other why's.. but i think we all have our moments when we just want to do, feel or say something "just". basta. (the "just" is the translation of a korean kabarkada, :) cute.. )
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/22/2006 09:04:00 AM
controlling the uncontrollable
i hate this.if someone is trying to psychologize me, then i think it is goddamn working.
ssshhh.. i hate the fact that i am affected; and that i am starting to care that for the past two days, i heard nothing from him; that a weekend just passed and he didnt invite me to meet up with him; that he didnt even text me.
*malakas loob ko kase alam kong di niya to binabasa, haha*
i'll get used to this.
aja aja fighting! :)
**** *** ****
i wonder how a person can make you happy and sad at the same time.
i want to be with him, yes. being with him makes me happy ...
... is it because he is, looks, and acts funny?
... is it because he acts childish?
... is it because it is easy to make him laugh because the simplest things 'amaze' him?
but being with him makes me feel sad as well. It even hurts a bit.
:) funny.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/22/2006 09:02:00 AM
BEWARE: this entry is nonsense (hehe)
haaayyy.. i feel so full. i had lunch today. -together with my g2g friends. (haha, a heavy one)and what's extra satisfying about it is that it is free, haha. food tastes extra yummy when it is free or when it is someone else's.
anyway.. i wonder why i like to talk about food now. hmm.. but im really craving for korean noodles and there's a noodle place on UG, but it's expensive, so being on a tipid mode these days.. sad, set aside my craving first.
the place is actually a korean mini-grocery. they have korean ice cream (or a popsicle that costs 70 bucks); lots of korean noodles, korean veggies (hehe, nope, just veggies for korean meals); korean soda; korean cookies; and of course, they have soju - korean alcohol (ryan's favorite food, kk)..
trivia: what does "kkkk" mean to koreans?
...
...
it's their laugh. hehe. kk.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/18/2006 10:23:00 PM
CUTE.. ^_^
If in the Philippines, romantic love is extra celebrated every Valentine's Day; in Korea, it is done on the 14th of every month.. aawww.. cuteJanuary 14: Diary Day
The day of presenting your lover with a cute diary and a basket of flowers
February 14: Valentines Day
The day when girls and women present their boyfriends with chocolate and confess their love
March 14: White Day
The day when boys and men present their girlfriends with chocolate and confess their love
April 14: Black Day
The day when people who have no lovers eat black Chinese noodles together
May 14: Rose Day
The day when lovers present each other with roses to express their love
Yellow Day
The day when those who were unable to eat black noodles on Black Day go to eat yellow curry rice
June 14: Kiss Day
The day when lovers kiss to confirm their love
July 14: Silver Day
The day when lovers exchange silver rings to make a promise for the future
August 14: Music Day
The day of presenting a CD with love songs
September 14: Photo Day
The day when lovers take pictures to keep memories of their love
October 14: Wine Day
The day when lovers drink wine and share love
November 11: Ppeppero Day
The day of presenting Ppeppero cookies
November 14: Movie Day
The day when lovers go to see a movie holding handsHug DayThe day of giving hugs to your loved ones
December 14: Money Day
The day of spending generously for your lover
Sock Day
The day of presenting socks ahead of Christmas
Credit goes to this site: http://english.kbs.co.kr/life/trend/1343996_11857.html
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/18/2006 12:59:00 AM
G2G Summer Internship
:) my fellow interns in Globe.
This was taken after our "dance number" (haha) last Saturday for Eskwelakas in Payatas.
Hmm... I can explain to you what the activity is about etc. but I don't want to. God, I've been doing that for the past few weeks - specifically by drafting letters / invitations to people giving them info on the activity etc. (haha.. too many etcs. My Market Research prof would hate me.)
I also can tell you about my summer internship but I don't want to now. Haha, for basically the same reasons. I've been spending 8 hours (sometimes more) of my daily life in my work station in Globe for the past 4-5 weeks. Assigned under Corporate Marketing Services, under Events and Sponsorships, what i've been doing is basically helping my superiors with updating merchmats lists, following up sponsorships, routing documents etc (hehe, here we go again). Wah.. enough. I've been writing all these stuff in my bi-monthly reports.
2 weeks to go and I'm done. I actually am really not in the mood to go to the office these days. It's weird because everyday, i keep on wishing that i don't get much work; and yet, when im doing nothing, i always rant.. rant.. rant.. that i feel so drained. Haaay.. Like right now, I wish i am somewhere else -
... in the mall, looking for stuff to buy when i get my salary at the end of this stint);
... or in a parlor, - hehe, i want to have my hair dyed - hmm.. im thinking reddish brown; or have it curled. A waste of money, i know but who cares, i just need this to make me feel that my life is not that monotonous. change. change;
... or at home - sleeping (yes, with my contact lenses on again), or just staying in bed, listening to the 'happy' songs, or watching Full House;
haaayyy..
But I am here. and i have to be here. wherever i am, i am there. (yeah right. what the hell am i saying? haha)
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/17/2006 06:56:00 PM
sentiments of a trying hard stalker.. and poet
I am very much disappointed with myself. I am failing my Stalking101 class. grr..Just one account. I have my clues. but i keep on failing. it is very frustrating.
darn. what's with the rhyme? annoying.
hmm.. speaking of rhyme, my roommates and i were bringing out the inner poets in us this morning. hehe..
I think that i shall never see
A poem as lovely as a tree
(blah blah blah?)
A tree whose hungry mouth is pressed
Against the earth's sweet flowing breast
A tree who looks at God all day
and lifts her leafy arms to pray.
(blah blah blah?)
Poems are made by fools like me
But only God can make a tree.
** I remember that when i was in 6th grade, we had to recite this in class. hehe. plus i had to write the poem on a cartolina as a project. (hehe, actually, i asked someone to write it for me) . plus, if i am not mistaken, the poem is posted along a certain highway.
Pero di ko pa rin memoryado.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/16/2006 07:29:00 PM
two
A few days ago, I just told a friend how much I wanted to forget that there really is nothing to remember.Because i am again inventing. i am again lying to myself. I am 're-creating' in my mind a scene which no one knows (rather, no one but him) whether it really happened or not.
So what if I get to confirm my story is real? I still have no right to make further assumptions that that means this or that. But i guess we all would agree how difficult it is to stop what you're thinking, what you're feeling, what you're imagining.
I am confused right now. I miss him. And yet, i miss him. My day is not complete if i dont receive any text message from him. The mere thought that he doesnt remember me pains me. But everytime I close my eyes, I couldnt help but imagine.. and think about the 'other he'.
This is no mushy "i-am-torn-between-two-lovers' or 'sana-dalawa-ang-puso-ko' kind of thing. O well, I hope not. It's a bit more (or is it less?) complicated that that, haha.
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/14/2006 11:31:00 PM
Drunking 101
Lesson learned over the weekend:If you get drunk and you need to throw up, dont do so in the sink. Do it in the toilet.
Grrr.. i have already mastered the art of cleaning a sink because literally had to clean up my act. Haha, at least if in the toilet, i just had to flush it. and.. evidence gone. :)
Posted by tengcorrea at 5/08/2006 12:41:00 PM
stay
After not seeing each other for weeks, I feel happy that I got to spend time with a friend yesterday.At first, I felt that he has changed. Something which I couldnt explain - maybe it is the way he talks, the way he delivers his 'hirits' to me; or maybe at the back of my mind, I know that he sees me differently now. (am i flooding you again with vague statements?), or maybe it is just his (fling) stories which are foreign to me.
And since I am too honest with him (and i came to a point when i just hated myself for being that honest with him - that i don't filter what i say even if it is gonna hurt him or me.. going back..) - i told him that he seems different. Then, I realized that yes, he just seems changed but he's not (and i mean that on a positive note). Because during the next minutes of us being together, i could feel that i could see him again, and I hope he could see me as well.
... because i find it so hard to explain myself these days. I hate explaining why i said this or that, why i did something, why i feel that way. I hate explaining to anyone. I hate explaining to myself.
So i do hope that even if I wasn't able to express myself that clearly to him, i hope that through my presence, through my decision to see him, through the ways i allow myself to be the real me while with him, through the few tears i shed - i hope he knows what i have been wanting to say all this time. That it is not as simple as "let's get back together and make things work again" or "let's just live our own lives, forgetting everything that we had and still have". It is not as simple as yes or no; not black or white; not love or hate; not him, you or any other guy.
I guess it is not as simple as those things. but it is simple. Stay - even if that would mean continuously hurting or annoying each other. I want him to stay because as selfish as this may sound, there is a part of me that only he can understand; there's a certain happiness that only he can give; there's a certain sadness that only he can give.
And i know that with the way things are going (at least, until yesterday) between the two of us, we are slowly hurting one another. False hope. Expectations. Stories that hurt. Imagine holding a rose whose stem is full of thorns. It pricks your hand and so it bleeds, but you want the rose so badly you want to keep it in your hand and instead of letting go, your grip gets tighter. The more pain it gives you, the more you want it, the more you find it beautiful, the more you realize its worth.
whew. dont try to understand. i'm babbling.
