Sunday, August 14, 2005
this picture was taken aug 13, last saturday, in my friend jan jan's place in antipolo.
what is so special with this picture is not that they are a couple (hmm.. i hope they are not.., haha) -- but it is because these are THE most important persons in my life right now. :)
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anyway, here's a quite detailed update on the 'event' last saturday :)I just came from an overnight at Jan’s place in Antipolo. It was actually in celebration of Natalie’s (his younger sister and a former schoolmate) 18th birthday but since not many of her friends could make it to the party, it turned out to be more of our batch’s reunion.
It was great to see again some of my friends from high school. Although most of who I was with were those same persons I have been going out with recently – of course, Vee-jay who I was watched a movie with the other day; the ever-present Sherwin; the forever subject of tawanan and pikunan Pupung; and Ambo and Jing, who I have been drinking and celebrating a dog’s birthday with recently.
Present also were Yeye (of course, I was with her last last week for the Victory fellowship
session here in Katips); Babam; Tinan; Tini; Ate Misu (haha, the Michelles who I last saw last May – when we had bebe-que and some Red Horse in their place); Jek and Mik (hey, I just saw these two last week; Reno (who was with us – Vee-jay, Teng and Ewin - in Vee-jay’s place when the three of them went night-swimming); Luthgard (who I last saw months ago ata in SM Manila but he didn’t see me); and Howie (who I was with last Christmas pa ata; woow.. panalo siya sa patagalan). Of course, there were some of Nata’s friends from her batch. Jm was there, of course. Hmmm.. as usual, he was again pushing the idea of us being siblings-in-law. but he was kind of asking me why.. oh why.. that now we are no longer going to be such.. because he saw us together last night.
The Food.
Oh well, the place was temptation island. And I was very weak because I easily gave in to the cheese-and-ham stuffed bread (who deceivingly looked like meat); the kakanins (my forever weakness) and the tiny lumpia rolls (is that what you cal it?! haha).
Yeye and I kept on coming back the table towards the later part of the night. Nata was always catching us as well as Jan’s mommy and daddy… what was more embarrassing is that when the plate in the table was running out of the stuffed bread and then, I think Nata told her mom that we like it - -then Tita Eva (ehem,, tita.. joke – of course, now I am more comfy joking about this!) got another bilao-ful of stuffed bread.. yumm.. yumm.. OF course, yeye and I waited until she went inside before we committed our pig-out crime.
So I was full again. A bit depressed after bingeing that I attempted at doing crunches while Yeye, Babam and I were in the attic (jan’s room) watching the 101 Crimes of Fashion; but then Yeye told me that it’s bad so I stopped and just lied down, which is worse, actually, since the food tends to accumulate in your stomach and your metabolism and digestion speeds drop.
But to be fair to me, I was able to resist the leche flan. Hmm… thank God I still was kind of worrying about my toothache. Should I thank my toothache.. arghh.. noo..
The Inuman.
--which I was not part of by the way. I slept a bit after 12 (Yeye and Babam slept a few minutes earlier) simply because I was bored because there was nothing good to watch on TV and I had no one to talk to because Baba who had been complaining of a pain in his chest was out buying his medicine – alcohol. I really didn’t have plans of sleeping because I had my contacts on but then, Jan Jan caught me half-asleep in the sofa with the TV on and he was like “matulog ka na kaya” then he was semi-ordering me to sleep on the bed beside Babam and being in the state of half-grogginess (haha), I obeyed him. after all, he is the host. J
What I though would be a short nap turned out to be a three-hour sleep. That is a complete cycle, right? I felt cold and we had no blankets so I rose and went downstairs. Before I slept, I was hearing Pupung and Jan moving the sofa – which I found out to be a sofa bed eventually -, but when I woke up at around 3 a.m., the room, actually the whole house was quiet. I went down the second floor and saw just the guitars which they were using earlier in their acoustic jamming. I went down another floor and the table was clear; no one was in the living room. (wait.. wait. .this isn’t a horror story, by the way). oh shit, wait a minute, I almost forgot that Luthgard was there, talking with someone over the phone,. Well, he was speaking quietly I barely knew he was there.
Back to the story, I went to the kitchen leading to the back door and there at the back (where we ate) – were the guys. There I saw Baba – with his shirt off - haha—which I found a bit funny-looking because he really looked like a certified ‘manginginom’ – as in iyong mga tipong sume-set talaga, haha) He came to me for a while and thought that Luthgard and I talked. Ha?! What about? ( hey, I am not bitter about anything ha. It’s just that baba is very much into the idea of luthgard and I talking when I personally believe that things are ok so there’s no need for talk J )
I didn’t sleep since then. For a while, I was just upstairs, staring at myself at the dresser’s mirror sa third floor. Haha, I know that is a bit weird. Imagine total boredom plus no one to talk to. Then Pupung came upstairs and suggested that I just go downstairs and sit with them at the inuman table.
So that’s what I did. I am still in a low-energy level then but Baba was his extra-hyper and comic self that he kept on cracking jokes – particularly about Pupung being a boy in the house – since Pups had the set of keys with him since he was in-charge of everything because Jan was already sleeping. (Pinupulutan nila si Pupung, as always. Good thing Pupung was just game with it. J) so even if I didn’t have my hirits, Baba’s jokes and the laughter of everyone else were enough to keep me awake.
All down.
After two long-neck bottles of Emperador brandy and sago gulaman as chaser, a realization hit them that such was not a very good combination. Add to that the great probability that the effects of the alcohol were starting to kick in their systems. And so gradually, the chairs around the inuman table got empty. The table however, was an epitome of kababuyan.. (haha…I have been using this term often recently. I hope it doesn’t intimidate some people – as in when it sounds really ‘ baboy’ or green or lamog or whatever to them) – with the empty bottles; red plastic cups –some a bit filled with water, empoy or gulaman), bilaos with bread and lumpia crumbs; and a banana peeling. (yeah, teng, they really don’t care about the details. Hehe.. bear with me. .i am quite in the mood to share..)
Baba and I wanted to not sleep and believe me – we are both capable of that. He is an insomniac and in my case – I slept for 9 to 10 hours the night before last night so I had plenty of reserve sleep. But since he drank and alcohol depresses him –(so it works for him as a real depressant) – he fell asleep and since I had no one to talk with.. I slept also – although I guess not very deep – along with everybody else.
Posted by tengcorrea at 8/14/2005 10:29:00 AM
Great.. now I see the cavity. Yes, it is so gross. Haha, ang arte.. so now I know why my tooth hurts and I now can figure out which exact tooth. Although I am deeply worried that my other molars are on the brink of ‘teeth germ invasion.’ Haha.. that’s weird. I don’t even know what the more apt terms are.
Hay.. now I feel like blaming the King Polvoron’s polvoron; Country Style’s Sno Board (with the white chocolate and dark chocolate surprises); Nutty Caramel and Triple Peanut Blast ( both with peanut butter surprise, which is just sooo heaven, can I just say..hehe); Chupa Chups (haha, did I spell that right?), the mini-choco cakes (available in Cookies n Cream and milk chocolate in fancy designs – baba is also addicted to this! haha); and all the other sweets I am so addicted to these days.
Now the thought of spending a day without any of these is killing me. yes, it is a bit exaggerated but I hope you understand the feeling when you are craving for something and when you can’t just satisfy that craving, you tend to binge – trying to eat everything which you think could make up for such tragic tragedy. Owkkey.. enough with hyperboles.
I wish I could go to the dentist – to any dentist – (I would have to take the risk - no choice) TOMMOROW. Because I think this matter really should be given attention ASAP. Woo.. I am damn scared of losing a tooth or teeth (yikes) the ‘unnatural’ way, so to speak.
Posted by tengcorrea at 8/14/2005 08:53:00 AM
yep.. it's been two months of happiness - in my own paradoxical definition. :-)
we had no definite plans last night but it went great. (sometimes, the greatest 'lakads' happen unplanned.) at least, we got to meet up. hmm.. muntik nang hindi because i also had to attend an inuman slash brithday celebration of my friend ktl.
he gave me a baba bear who is sooo gay becaus e 'she' has a ribbon. haha. she's cute.. i guess i have to post a picture here next time. i was to give him something also -- not really a gift but just something.. haha... a glow-in-the-dark surprise as i like to call it).. but since the paint i used didnt dry up when i had to leave, i had to give it next time instead.. hmm.. i actually am thinking now whether i shoudl still give it.. it's kinda crap and stupid but if you're the type of person who appreciates little things, you'll find that sweet.. hehe
we watched 'if only'. yeah, i know, it's been in the theaters for 3 or 4 weeks now so you might be wondering why we chose to see this and not "charlie and the chocolate factory'. hmm, it is just that since i have seen its trailer, it is one movie i've been really wanting to see. but since baba and i were both on a tight budget this month and if we had money, we had no time - i thought watching it in theater was not possible. but it seems that it is meant to be that i see this film.. with him, :)
yey.. i wasnt disappointed. ok... other might find the movie overly romantic, mushy and keso.. haha.. but i find the movie really sweet. it is romantic indeed, in its most beautiful sense. it is predictable, though, but that flaw, for me, doesnt cloud the 'tug-in-the-heart' the film possesses.
what i got from the movie:
never be afraid to show how much you really love someone even if you feel that you love the person more than s/he does;
bring out all the sweetness, the appreciation you can give. love and dont just adore;
make each day perfect for that person -- and for you -- because that that day ought to be a day you two share;
..because you'll never know, that day might be the last..
yey.. :)with my baba beside me, the movie experience is an absolute ''aayyyy.." sweet.. perfect..
Posted by tengcorrea at 8/12/2005 12:24:00 PM
yes, i just heard from my father that the hospital dormitory which served as my family's home for 17 years would soon be gone.
papa told me that they were starting to move out. and i just can't imagine them being able to move EVERYTHING - including the junk - from the dorm to our beach house in Sabang.
this isnt much surprising, with the change of provincial administration but still, when i found out about this sad news this morning, i cant help but feel shocked, sad - even somehow devastated that i wanted to cry -- but i just can't - for some reason.
i felt bad particularly for my parents. even if i have been acting a bad daughter these past few months, i still can't deny one big fact - that deep inside, behind the anger, behind the ill thoughts i have been having against them, i still care. i worry about the major shift in lifestyle my parents and my brother are having right now. of course, i would experience the same 'turn;, though in less intensity since i stay and will be (for summer) staying here in Manila most of the time.
and so just now, i felt the truth behind what my philo prof said in class yesterday " the opposite of love is not hatred but indifference."
i hate but i still care.
