Thursday, August 31, 2006

first things first

(haha.. ironic. this isnt one of the first things that i should be doing right now. but i just felt i needed a break from those thesis statements for philo orals, hehe) THINK LIGHT, teng.. sometimes.

haha, ate misu kase, :P

the things that first came to mind
1. [ RED ]: heart
2. [ BLUE ]: ateneo
3. [ YELLOW ]: favorite
4. [ GREEN ]: grass
5. [ PINK ]: girl
6. [ WHITE ]: peace
7. [ BROWN ]: soil
8. [ BLACK ]: thin (it makes you look thin, right?)
9. [ PURPLE ]: ube
10. [ CRAZY ]: naked
11. [ DICTIONARY ]: pocket
12. [ CALENDAR ]: deadlines!
13. [ BED ]: mess
14. [ TV ]: pinoy big brother (haha, is this thesis getting into my subconscious)
15. [ CAT ]: the alleged 'kill-all-cats- in-the-ateneo' policy
16. [ HANDPHONE ]: big
17. [ LOVE ]: painful
18. [ EYES ]: chinita
19. [ WATER ]: h20 (yuck, how nerd can i get?)
20. [ EXAM ]: stupid
21. [ FISH ]: tuna
22. [ TOMATO ]: burger (yuumm.. now im craving)
23. [ SHAMPOO ]: lux
24. [ BURGER KING): vee-jay (and his promo stubs)
25. [ McDONALDS ]: cheese burger (yumm.. again)
26. [ KFC ]: dirty (haha, where did this come from)
27. [ TEA ]: the UNIF green tea ad (cute -*-)
28. [ SOUP ]: nido
29. [ CAR ]: rav4
30. [ FRUIT ]: Apple
31. [ POWER PUFF GIRLS ]: Bubbles
32. [ NESCAFE ]: coffee (hay.. such lame answers
33. [ AVRIL LAVIGNE ]: wah.. i just mentioned her, right.. --> fake.
35. [ SUPERSTAR ]: nora aunor
36. [ BURN ]: tina arena
37. [ FLOWER ]: yellow roses
38. [ TATTOO ]: m & m's ( i had a classmate in physics before with this cute m& m's tattoo :p)
39. [ HOLIDAY ]: no class
40. [ BYE ]: pain
41. [ DREAM GAL ]: my exact opposite
42. [ DREAM GUY ]: nothing
43. [ SURVEY ]: our PBB survey! (haha... i wish i could shoo away those thesis thoughts! even just for now)
44. [ NAIL POLISH ]: my black toenail polish now (to hide my dead and totally damaged nails, hehe)
45. [ FRIENDSTER ]: tal and her first successful stalking job
46. [NUT ]: hazelnut (now i want coffee)
47. [ BALLPEN ]: that korean brand i got before that killed my fingers
48. [ FISHBALL ]: sweet and spicy sauce
49. [ DIVISORIA ]: cheap thrills
50. [ MANOK ]: khia (at ang kanyang pakikipagsabayan dati sa pagtilaok ng manok, hehe)
51. [ CHOCOLATE ]: Time out bites
52. [ YM ]: bano
53. [ STARBUCKS ]: trigger (grr..just when im trying to let go of my addiction.) "hot tall hazelnut non-fat latte"
54. [ POWDER ]: godiva nude
55. [ TIME ]: 12:00 (so many bday surprises happen at this time)
56. [ MOUSE ]: cute eyes
57. [ HEAVEN ]: where i want to be
58. [ HELL ]: fire, my element
59. [ JUICE ]: mango
60. [ PERFUME]: benetton
61. [SOAP]: cetaphil
62. [LOTION]: ultima
63. [CAMPING]: full house (aaayyy..)
64. [COMPUTER]: this NICE laptop (talk about sarcasm) peace, neo.
65. [CHAIR]: my chair during the GLobe stint (it was 'screamingly not mine')
66. [CLUB]: cosa
67. [LECHONG BABOY]: apple (hehe, yung nasa bibig niya)
68. [BAG]: laptop bag (because ive been wanting to get a new one, hehe)
69. [SHOES]: slippers!!!!
70. [T-SHIRTS]: my collared green one
72. [PJs]: haha, ryan's gay pajamas (with hearts and stars) - magagalit yun
73. [CLOSET]: a mess right now
74. [COLLEGE ]: ateneo
75. [ESSAYS]: my blockmate enrico subido (palanca awardee. .bow)
76. [BOOKS]: paulo coelho books (e.g. veronika..)
77. [RING ]: my happiness ring(which i bought for myself last feb 14 but now it's lost)
78. [CDs]: my avril lavigne cd (i wonder where it is now)
79. [WEBSITE]: yahoomail! (haha.. halatang yun lagi pinupuntahan
80. [REFRIGERATOR]: our ref in the dorm
81. [CALCULATOR]: my calculator (labeled with my name in Glow in the Dark paint)
82. [DARNA]: angel locsin
83. [SINGER]:
84. [BROADWAY]: performance
85. [POOL]: swim suit
86. [BUS]: genesis
87. [DUNKIN DONUTS]: too sweet
88. [BASKIN N' ROBINS]: ice cream
89. [TO GO]: take out (?) how come i'm giving synonyms?!
90. [MALL]: gateway
91. [NEW YORK]: busy
92. [BELT]: stripes
93. [NECKLACE]: the fu/happiness necklace pendant that vee-jay returned to me when we broke up) hehe.. how tragic.
94. [GEL]: citre shine
95. [BEVERAGE]: red horse
96. [NOODLES]: korean noodles
97. [CHIPS]: pringles
98. [WINTER]: snow and him
99. [SUMMER]: beach
100. [YOURSELF]: rant

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/31/2006 03:41:00 AM

0 comments Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Pinoy Big Brother

i need your help, :)

our thesis is on PBB, and we need PBB viewers of any edition to answer our survey. :p so if you watched PBB or you know any friend/s who did watch it, pls pls text me or email me at

kcrocks@atenista.net.

yey.. thanks.. :P

(haha, the post sounds weird, right?)

yikes, just a call for help. hehe

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/30/2006 11:21:00 AM

1 comments Monday, August 28, 2006

semi-new me.

i am proud of myself that people cannot just hurt me as much as they could before.

:)

i still do think of him a lot. i still do wait. i still do wonder. and i still do wish that it is me and not anyone else he is with, but he just could not make me cry anymore. :)

hayy.. the beauty of drifting away. knowing that you just cannot do anything about it makes you just ride with where the current leads you.

"fighting!"

that is soooo ironic.

am i still fighting?

maybe not.

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/28/2006 01:04:00 PM

2 comments Friday, August 25, 2006

Rain

it is going to rain tomorrow.

someone told me before that rain makes him feel sad.

it was raining on that night. the thought of spending time with this person, those words he told me, made me happy..but the thought of the bigger context behind those things made me sad.

(oh well, those are moments.)

if it rains tomorrow, that would most probably not make him sad because tomorrow would be day of celebration for him and for someone else. maybe that will make me sad.

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/25/2006 02:00:00 PM

0 comments

i recently feel disappointed with the way i have been working for my classes this semester.

inasmuch as i dont like to sound like a grade-conscious nerd; just yesterday, i actually felt bad when i got my individual philo paper marked with a 2.5. haayy.. i wonder why i suddenly care when i usually dont. actually, i am more 'annoyed' with the many questions he noted there. ano ang ibig sabihin nito? ito ba ang depinisyon nito? ano ang kaugnayan nito sa relihiyon? ssshh. in short, he thinks my answers are crap.

maybe, i just hate the thought that even in simple things such as papers, i cannot make sense that people just dont get what i am trying to say.

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/25/2006 01:20:00 PM

0 comments Monday, August 07, 2006

dot

i remember when someone told me that the relationships i have with two people form that of a line. he loves me, i love someone else, but we both don't know who that someone else loves.

but now we know who that someone else loves. and i know that the person who used to love me no longer does.

so now, i am a dot. i dont make sense without a sentence. i dont make sense.
it's amazing how other people believe that i CAN. and the last thing that i want to do right now is beg for attention, for care, for comfort because they believe that i can.

they say other people try to mask their weaknesses. and i don't want to be like them, but those people who say they believe that i can - they make me lie.

i want to run away. but maybe not now, i have to make Proj 24 happen.

Posted by tengcorrea at 8/07/2006 08:42:00 AM

3 comments Thursday, August 03, 2006

thank you

i don't know why all of a sudden - i want to do this.

i just want to thank YOU.

it is not that i am trying hard to look at life positively all of a sudden but i just feel like feeling grateful.. - (yikes, why is it all about the feeling.. tsk tsk.). i just feel the 'presence' of people- of those that i see everyday, of those i see around school only by chance; and of those that i havent seen for quite a long time.

i am not exactly happy (whatever being 'exactly happy' means, hehe) but i dont feel that heavy anymore. (hay.. sopla.)