Tuesday, May 25, 2004

addicted to the dentist

i think i am getting addicted to going to the dentist these days. hehe. in a week's time, i have visited the dentist thrice already - once for the cleaning, twice for the 'pasta'whatever. (im sorry, i dont know the 'technical' term for that :)) i think im just getting paranoid about my teeth having cavities or whatever. (haha, nakakainis na yang whatever na yan ah) well, who wouldnt be scared? --after my mother showed me her two molars which were 'pulled' out. yuck, i couldnt imagine the root of a tooth could be that deep. my mother even told me to how painful and bloody it was. ow-keyy, para akong batang tinatakot. hehe.

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yahoo! yeye is here in baler since saturday. soo happy because i just have this extreme longing for friends to talk with these days.
ive realized just recently how it really feels when you're so down that you just need someone to talk to -- when you feel like you just have to do all the talking and that pitiful someone had no other choice but to listen to your rants. (hehe, im such a selfish bitch)-- when someone's presence or even his voice is just sooo important.

oww, the irony of the situation is just that when i already have people to talk with, my 'im-really-not-in-the-mood-to-talk' feeling comes. well, luckily, gone are my madrama days. i still have my so-called problems and questions. im still confused but GENERALLY, i feel better now. :) (well, good for you, teng -- hehe.)

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i think i am beginning to understand the reason/s behind my "i-feel-so-down" days. it's all in my system.

Posted by tengcorrea at 5/25/2004 12:05:00 AM

0 comments Wednesday, May 19, 2004

depressed

this week is so depressing. i cant tell why. it's probably because of the gloomy weather or probably it's just my negative feeling that everything is so screwed up these days (well, things are screwed up - in certain 'areas' of my life. i wouldnt dare specify.)

QUESTION: do people change overnight? yes, it's a stupid question. well, i just hate it when people think i've changed when i dont really think i did. (am i just denying?) hay, some people are just soooo hard to understand.

i am supposed to go to the dentist today to have my teeth cleaned. but it seems that GOD doesnt want to get my teeth cleaned. wehe. ow-key, i should have gone to the dentist last monday but it was raining very hard because of typhoon dindo so appointment was CANCELLED. i went yesterday with cousin budang to the clinic but while waiting, shet, brown-out, CANCELLED again. this afternoon, i went there alone but the doctor is OUT. haha.

i am attending a friend's (sheena, a friend since elementary days :)) on the 25th. i dont have anything formal to wear yet so HOPEFULLy, after my visit to the dentist, i could go with mama to look for fabric. (im gonna have a gown sewn, btw. i dont have one)

Posted by tengcorrea at 5/19/2004 01:22:00 PM

0 comments Saturday, May 15, 2004

so many questions are floating in my mind right now:

is there something wrong with being too honest?

*because everytime i try to be truthful to 'people of authority', things just get screwed up. i ended up hurt and crying and deprived of my happiness.

is it my fault to have been born a girl?

*well, whatever. girls just just have more limitations than boys. arrghh, i hate it.

why the hell do people mind other people's business?

*arrghh. i hate it - living in a world where my every action / decision is affected by the consequences society determines

am i bad to hate the people i am not supposed to hate? (huh?!)

*i owe my life to these people but i would like to believe they dont own me, right? so i have the right to hate them if they're just too intrusive to my private or MY life? (yeah right.)

why am i here?

*im supposed to be somewhere else now.

Posted by tengcorrea at 5/15/2004 01:16:00 PM

0 comments Tuesday, May 11, 2004

i have two scheduled 'galas' today. 1. as a yfc member here, welcome the yfc members from cavite who came here in baler for the lakbay laya. 2. kuwentuhan with raya anywhere because she'll be going back to manila tomorrow and we have to sort of catch up things..

poor me.. wala natuloy sa dalawa, so here i am, in an internet cafe. i ended up meeting up with the pc. but hey, at least, the connection is unusually quite fast today. praise god.

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i wonder who's going to be our president for the next 6 years. well, that's the least i could do -- wonder. i feel such an irresponsible citizen not even making an attempt to register. tsk tsk.

i dont want gloria to win. i dont know why (see, what a citizen!)well, probably, it's because i want someone NEW to lead the country. whether that someone new is better or worse than the former (or yun pa rin?)administration, i believe it wouldnt make such great impact to the lives of every filipino. of course, it would have its effects but still, the success or failure of every individual still is greatly dependent on the efforts and hard work of that person. one needs not blame the government or anyone else if life gets hard on him, right?

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well, gotta go for now. i would have to meet up with raya now.

Posted by tengcorrea at 5/11/2004 04:00:00 PM

0 comments Sunday, May 02, 2004

all's well that ends well

just a brief update on my sort of much-awaited gig:

well, it was quite a gig that didnt start so well but ended great.

i was pissed off during the earlier hours. first, i was disappointed when i missed the performances of moonstar and barbie's cradle. (barbie's was almost done when we came inside the venue.) then, i honestly WAS irritated when i felt the presence ( or spirit ) of two 'guardians' who was keeping me from doing things i wanted to do, ow-key stupid things i wanted to do. they were (i thought that time but i somehoe think of it differently now!) overly protective not letting me 'join' the mosh pit. ang sakin lang naman,, we came there to enjoy so i really didnt care getting hit in the head with those pepsi x bottles. pero ok na ngayon. hehe. brat lang, tao lang.

but all in all, it was a KEWL night. i got to drink what i wanted to. hehe (patay ako nito eh. di secret lang)