Saturday, December 31, 2005

what's a "happy new year" without the word "happy" in it? it is dangerous, i tell you.
first of all, a warm thank you to all the people who sent me such greeting last night. it is very well appreciated and if you guys only knew how i was feeling then, you'd realize how much of a great help a single greeting of "happy new year" would mean to me.

i didnt start the year right. and i am not so proud of it why i am writing it here. but i just want to let it out. so warning: for those who dont wanna get infected, stop here. read no further of this entry.

it feels so hard to welcome a new year with so many thoughts, with much heaviness - that those few drops of tears i shed were of no help. a thought why some people just can't help but get in the way of the happiness of some. a thought why some people can be so judgmental when they f*#king dont know that person they're judging(and it was as if they do - even more than the person closest to that person does). a thought why some people would always want to have a certain control over someone. a thought why some would assert that they are being fair when in reality and in all circumstances, there is really no such thing.

and a thought why there are some people whose heart is so full of hatred - toward people they are not supposed to hate. a thought why they are people who like to fight for some who doesnt want to be fought for. a thought why there are some who have to hate other people to prove to themselves that they love someone.

thoughts. just thoughts. i dont expect answers. i dont expect change.
as shallow and selfish as it may sound, i only want the first word in that greeting, even without the second.

Posted by tengcorrea at 12/31/2005 04:42:00 PM

0 comments Tuesday, December 20, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMAS. MERRY CHRISTMAS. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

yeah right. it is the 21st, my friends.. almost christmas. but where is christmas? this makes me feel sad, honestly because i always 'proclaim' that christmas is indeed the most wonderful time of the year (as the song goes..) and yet i wonder where is that wonder now... (and it seems that most of the people i know feel and think the same way.

are people too busy? with what? with school projects to accomplish? with papers to write? with requirements? with bills and debts to pay? are we too busy thinking - thinking what we MUST do; even thinking what we must think about. everyone just seems to be preoccupied with their own thing that most people i know (including myself) havent shopped for gifts; some havent even written their christmas list..so sad...

Posted by tengcorrea at 12/20/2005 06:40:00 PM

0 comments Friday, December 02, 2005

corrections:

1. it is atheistic existentialism.
2. my philo prof just confirmed that you dont turn nothing into something. i must hav emisunderstood the reading.

haha. oh well, bye for now. quite in a hurry.

got to go to san agustin museum. then to el pueblo, to help out with the oz party. good luck. it is gonna be a long day.