Tuesday, February 06, 2007

i want to cry

he is going.. and maybe never coming back.

last night, he was undecided. and when he asked me what i want, i said that he just goes wherever he thinks he would be happy. though i wanted to tell him to stay, i just couldnt say the words.. maybe because i dont want to keep someone i cannot protect, or make happy.

then i found out today that he has already decided. he is leaving and staying there for years. and just like what he told me last night, "maybe, when i come back here in the philippines, i will be married and with kids. you will be married and with kids already."

i dont know whether he heard me or not when i said, "you always make people wait. please dont tell me to wait for you."

i hope he didnt hear it. maybe, i was just telling that to myself. dont wait, teng.