Friday, April 23, 2004

tula?!

i am blinded
my vision
blurred;
by a sea
of dust.

i cant remember if this is the original poem i've written in my "more personal" diary. (i am supposed to bring my diary here at the cafe so that i could 'publish' some of the entries.kalimot ko eh) basta, the 'thought' (if there is any, hehe) is more or less the same.

well, i am blinded nowadays. both literally and figuratively.

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woohoo, im excited to go to manila this month's 30th. im going to this major gig. woohoo! expecting loads of music, kewl bands, kakakilig rockstars, (hehe). ah,, im looking forward to that LIFE - i seldom get to breathe. finally, may gala na naman. :)

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i am happy now. hehe. i want to keep it that vague.
at the same time, i am also sad. vague statement no. 2. hehe. i miss him. musta na kaya siya? hmmpp... wag na nga stop hurting yourself teng. stop thinking about him. he doesnt think about you, by the way.

Posted by tengcorrea at 4/23/2004 02:30:00 PM

0 comments Friday, April 16, 2004

wooppss..

erratum.

peter wasnt the one holding the dagger in the painting "the last supper". it's anonymous.

_---- the internet here sucks. my life here sucks. doomed.

Posted by tengcorrea at 4/16/2004 02:05:00 PM

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another nightmare

i unusually woke up at around 7 this morning - unusual for it was 3 hours earlier than my regular waking hour these summer days. i was even crying when i woke up. it was all because of this another bad dream i had -

i texted my father that i am going to this overnight at yeye's place in digisit. (hmm, the overnight makes the dream quite real except the venue. yeye doesnt own a resort somewhere. i should have been reno or lynette, if i wasnt dreaming). i found myself in a dimly lit room which looked like a church. standing in front speaking to us (i presume we were students, btw), was a guy teacher who disturbingly didnt look like one ( but anyway, let's establish him as a teacher in the dream, ok?. hehe. :))

i was sitting on the floor at the back of the people-packed room with yeye and luthgard (i dont know, they were the only distinct characters). then i raised my hand, stood up and talked to the teacher asking him to allow us to go to the overnight (i hell dont know why i need to ask for his permission in the first place but anyway, i did.??) he said it's ok and so everyone rejoiced. (so what?! im serious)

the climax -- military men came into the room, with their guns, of course. they were after the teacher. everyone started to panic. the men got the people, holding them on their sleeves, dragging them out of the room. (you get the picture). lucky for me, they didnt get me (so i was the bidahere. hehe). i was left with two other captives, three children and girl in her mid-20s, who (i assume) were "members" of the troop who attacked us. none of them looked familiar.

i was sitting next to the mid-20s girl. we werent talking, i was just staring at her ( it was weird i couldnt remember her face). i looked behind us and saw this little girl being made to drink what looked like medicine. after some time, i saw the three children laid down on the bed (i dont know where in the hell the bed came from but it was there). they looked as if they were sleeping but they were actually dead, so what they must have drank was poison. :(

the last scene- i saw my father. he came from nowhere (sorry, dreams are not that vivid, right?). he told me he was supposed to reveal his gift to me when the men came. he was probably referring to his permission for me to go to the overnight. i asked him about my friends who were "captured". he said i might not see them again.. ever. then, in my mind flashed the image of a flyer posted on the wall, which said "MISSING" and shown below these bold letters were pictures of young people (not my friends ah). but still, i cried. ow-key.. crappy scene.

then..BOOM.. i woke up. after about less than a minute of consciousness, i heard two beeps on my phone. ha! take this: yeye and luthgard sent me identical "gud morning [smiley]" messages. what a coincidence! yeah right. i immediately texted them about my horrible dream, which they were part of.

Posted by tengcorrea at 4/16/2004 01:20:00 PM

0 comments Sunday, April 04, 2004

im still alive

yahoo! finally i got to post here again..well, i really didnt get the chance to update my blog these past few days because {huhu}i dont have access to the net.

im here in baler already. ayy,, it feels so good to be home except that i have to suffer this super slow internet service. (i swear it took me almost five minutes just to download a page. arrgh) it's so sad i wouldnt be able to post entries here as frequent as before. :(

so far, im enjoying my summer. hehe, TV, gitara, kain, tulog, basa (uy, nagbabasa na ko. ngayon lang 'to!) . my most current read was "
da vinci code". i recommend this book. i couldnt help but be motivated to finish the 400+-page book in a sitting, due to its twists as well as the way each of its 105 chapters were cut. i've learned more about the Holy Grail as a metaphor for the sacred feminine, the Rose, Mary Magdalene. the book also made me appreciate ART more, particularly the famous art pieces of da vinci - the mona lisa and the last supper. mona lisa is androgenous, since mona lisa is an anagram for amon (egyptian god of fertility) and ??(shoot, i forgot, but it's the goddess of fertility.) another thing, mary magdalene was in the painting last supper, seated on the right hand of Jesus and Peter was holding a dagger!

woo., i have so much more to say. unfortunately, this cafe is closing in a few minutes. yeah right, this early.