Tuesday, March 25, 2008

I am scared that I didn't get scared

Death does not scare me. And that was quite scary.

As our car was entering this flyover bridge near Ortigas (not so sure) around 7:30 last night, the wheel closest to my seat just got loose and literally went ahead of us. That was after some minutes of wiggling (which we initially thought was 'normal' except for my mother who was the most worried).

We were blessed, right. There was no car nearby. The tire did not hit any other car. My father even managed to gear toward the other side of the road, the left lane, that is, - without us not hitting the railing or jumping off the flyover (as my brother had imagined at that moment).

What was weird was that I didn't remember feeling scared. I don't actually remember feeling anything (hmm,, or was that simply my 'defense mechanism' in such uncontrollable situations). I do remember a thought though, which was in reaction to what my mother (i think) said - that is, "tangina sasabog ata 'to". Hmm.. a quite stupid thought ata? (not so sure if an explosion is likely in such a situation). Great. I'm gonna die in my element - FIRE.

But thank God or any Higher Being in control because no one was hurt. We did cause some road obstruction in the area, yes, but we did not get hurt and did not hurt anyone. Live and let live.

Hay.. Things indeed happen that make us wonder about the wonders of life,.. and of death.