Monday, May 29, 2006

hot water

i am currently drinking an unstirred cup of coffee.

i run out of those disposable plastic forks (yep, that was what i have been using to stir my coffee); i forgot to bring my spoon from the dorm; and there is no stirrer in sight. so i trust that the hot water would just melt all the particles to give me just the right amount of bitterness.

beyond my coffee - i badly need my hot water now. something, someone, some act to melt away everything. i just want to disappear. I wish i could cry it all out and drown in my own tears. i wish i could scream and drown in my own voice so i couldnt hear myself - my questions and my invented answers, which i later on doubt.