Monday, May 22, 2006

controlling the uncontrollable

i hate this.
if someone is trying to psychologize me, then i think it is goddamn working.

ssshhh.. i hate the fact that i am affected; and that i am starting to care that for the past two days, i heard nothing from him; that a weekend just passed and he didnt invite me to meet up with him; that he didnt even text me.

*malakas loob ko kase alam kong di niya to binabasa, haha*

i'll get used to this.
aja aja fighting! :)

**** *** ****

i wonder how a person can make you happy and sad at the same time.

i want to be with him, yes. being with him makes me happy ...

... is it because he is, looks, and acts funny?
... is it because he acts childish?
... is it because it is easy to make him laugh because the simplest things 'amaze' him?

but being with him makes me feel sad as well. It even hurts a bit.
:) funny.