Tuesday, November 29, 2005

the weekend

the past long weekend had been painfully bliss. (haha, im not even sure if there is such a combination)

yes, aside from having no classes, (of course, for most students, that's definitely a 'yey') -- spending almost 3 consecutive days with my baba made me happy and from time to time, irritated..explain. explain. of course, his mere presence has always been enough to stop my time, not-so-literally, but more of like to make me slow down and almost forget all the must-do's in my organizer. for me, that means a lot because with all the stress i get from school, my baba serves as my stress reliever and sort of a resting place. :)

why irritated? because he kept on annoying me. im not so sure if i ought to believe him when he said last night that he was just doing that because he likes seeing me when i am 'pikon'. valid enough? im still thinking about it. grr.. he kept on telling me "mayaman ka naman eh" making a big fuss about my not finishing my food, my wanting to get an ipod, my studying in my school, even with the slippers i am wearing. i know it is hard to get my point why i hate hearing those things. i just hate it when people tell me such things. (haha, now i am reasoning like a brat) - because i never like people to think of me as too proud of myself, of the things i do, of the things i have. plus, darn, we are not rich. my parents just work hard to give us (their kids) the material things they think we deserve. ok,ok, enough of that.

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Readings. (haha, nerd)

it is getting all mixed up in my head.

1. what is truth? there is a truth in philo (aletheia), one in theo (of course, God) and in consumer research (hmm.. i forgot, something about consumers) .

2. what is the meaning of my existence as a man? Sartre's atheism existentialism says that YOU define it because you are your self-project. you started as nothing and you are absolutely free in making that nothing to something. there is no God to define you. There is no human nature as well.

then, theo says that God is the answer to the ultimate questions of life, death and meaning. To live a meaningful life is to live in God - to be a lover, to be out of self(ishness) - for it is through that that man would find his better truer self.

hmm.. just some thoughts.