Friday, September 23, 2005

i just had 30 minutes of sleep since yesterday.. well, it was nobody else's fault but mine. there was no paper i had to cram for whatsoever. i actually was with baba and pupung - but not really. ok,, i better explain that.. we were supposed to have this movie marathon but since i have SOME schoolwork (deal with the sarcasm.. SOME = a qualitative research paper, which ideally is 20 pages or more; a research proposal, which is half the quali paper but is crucial for it basically is our proposal for next year's thesis; a short film, and we dont have a script yet; and an unexpected eco quiz bee (haha. i have a funny story about this!) later at 430...

wheeww.. im sorry for digressing.

back to the movie marathon.. they did watch this new rob scheneider flick while i was in the other room reading about cybercafes and technosocial, heterotopia shit. then i joined them for dark water the american version but i really didnt get to watch it. thanks to baba who have seen the asian (im not sure if it's jap or chinese?) version so he was like anticipating every supposedly scary scene. haha. and he found pleasure in scarying me, for some reason.. haha.. spoiler.

after that.. i tried reviewing for later's quiz bee. wait wait, dont think that when i say i got to join the finals -- that that is so 'wowable' haha.. it is just an activity sponsored by an Economics org in school. i just joined last monday's elimination round (which was a written 25-item test) for the sake of 5 golden points for the next long test. haha.. loser.. oh well, you get 5 points by merely joining. then i surprisingly got to the final 10 and so, i accumulated 10 points already. i have no ambition of winning this 'Battle of the BraEANs' (yeah, that is what it is called) but i tried to read a bit still because i dont wanna be embarassed. the mechanics suck big time. grr.. we are two teams competing but then, each of us has to answer two questions individually. (get? basta ganun) wait, side story, one of the quizbee's organizers just passed by -- whewww.. i just wrote that their contest sucks. haha. not in the harshest sense of the word suck. i just freakin' lack sleep! forgive me.) AND then, the team members would vote out the least competent member.

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enough of whining.. now i'd like to share insights from my philo class (hey.. i am learning some important things from this class even if i really almost slept in class earlier the morning. it wasnt the class, the prof or the lesson, anyway.. just me..

if you really love someone / something.. say "i love you, you shall not die." i would like to label it the "essentially human way" of verbally expressing love :)

well, it doesnt mean that you want that person / thing to live forever.. literally. the point is rather simple but as said in class, the simplest things are the hardest to explain. what that means is that even if you know that that being is going to vanish in the order of time, the moment that you love that being (e.g. by appreciating its beauty), you are bringing the finite to the eternal.

it is not that cheesy kind of love. but relating it to that cheesy kind of love, haha, it's like saying that even if your loved ones die (and you, as well), the moments / experiences that you have had with that person are forever going to live.

there is also the contrast between possessing and belonging. think about this: the more that you possess someone /something, the less you belong together. belonging is essentially more essential. [haha, :-) ] because it involves a lived bond that's going to transcend time. an example of possessing or loveless having in its purest sense, is owning a land by mere land titles. it is different from really knowing the land - like if you are the one who plants in it, or takes care of it.

hmm.. i just remember my recent entry on how possessive i can be when i love. now clearly, it is essentially not a definition of love (since it is defined as loveless having, right?!) . something to reflect on.. indeed.