Monday, March 21, 2005

19 .. and still dreaming..

i just had the best birthday.. in my dreams. hehe. :p (i still would have to see what's up for the day) lots of chinese food, im guessing. yumm..

yesterday, my mother told me that i was smiling while i was sleeping. ha, it turned out that i was having the best dream.

ok, to protect identities, let us just hide the name of the person as Crush - hehe, come on, a very creative code name, right? hehe, anyway, here is how it all went:

i was typing something in a personal computer. setting? i do not know. all i remember was that i was in a house - which i am not familiar with. back to the story: so i was seated before the screen and a friend was beside me who i couldnt identify. then she left. after a few minutes, i sensed that someone was walking towards me but i didnt pay
any attention but my heart - naks- was telling me it was Crush. haha, sometimes when you really like someone, you just know when he is there. (physically. :p)

then a hanky covered my face. haha, thinking about it now - isnt that so funny brcause you are just supposed to cover the eyes, right? but in my dreams, he covered my whole face. cute, :p. then he carried me -by this time, i
was certain it was really him. hehe, kewlness, trust me, I JUST KNOW.- and brought me outside the house. it was just a few steps.

and of course, the typical scene: when he removed the hanky, i saw my friends - clue: our common friends but for 'security' reasons, of course, i would not reveal who they were -. my reaction was like ''ayy'' (*touched ako" mode*)
but it seemed then i was more interested in finding out why of all people, it was he who carried me. obvious pa-cute, i know. so i said "why?" his answer was weird "because we were together in blank and blank" (haha, just one more step of mentionign these and i am doomed)

we were holding hands since thens although i dont exactly get the point hell why , oh let me change that, HEAVEN why :p. (i could give you an interpretation now, but i better not. hehe.) anyway, what matters is that it felt good, change adjective, great. (what a colorless word) haha, biaatttcchh.. im just trying to be for real. plus im nineteen now, let us move on (got the konek?!)

then snap, back to reality - today is my birthday and Crush is one of those who do not remember my birthday. i think he does not even know it is my bday today. ayyy.. that is so sad. so sad. sad birthday to me. (on that aspect only though)

it IS a dream.. indeed. and i do not want to wake up. not yet, teng.

dreaming despite knowing that it will never come true is fun. very fun.