Friday, February 11, 2005

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hehe. some pictures taken during our filming for our asian history project.
god knows how much i wanted to write a really loong entry about this one. but it seems there's much to say that i find it really hard to organize thoughts

pero basta, i love this group and the people who are in it. it's kind of cheesy, i know. well, it's just that for the past four days that we have spent together - meeting up to talk about the uber many props; eating pizza and lotsa food - sometimes without even paying for it, hehe; complaining about the "bugs that crawl in the ground," which we all hate -- arrgh (except ail, i guess. peace po:) ) ; digging in that pile of clothes; yawning ; staring at each other's sleepy and dark-circled eyes; 'catching' the natural light (and waiting for darkness) as we shoot every ; and laughing until our eyes get misty and our stomachs ache.., YOU ALL SHOWED ME A DIFFERENT WORLD.

i had an escape from my monotous, often solitary world. for that four days, i was with people - really great and i loved it. i didnt care if i get sleepy that my eyes just automatically drops, i didnt care if being with you made me fat (because i cant resist the food); i didnt care if i wasnt able to do my school stuff ; i didnt care if i become everybody's personal assistant or alalay... i was happy. it felt good not being alone, once in a while.

now, i feel a bit sad. everything is back to NORMAL now. i attend my classes. i go to the library. i surf the internet - research, check email. then i go home, read, write a paper, and sleep. wake up early, prepare myself to school, blah blah.. the cycle goes. it is killing me. but i find no way to stop death from attacking me.

god, i miss working with those cool people. to jay,ail,tim,kt,les,enrico,ralph,carlo and gelo - i miss all of you. really.