Thursday, October 07, 2004

i still feel stressed out. i still feel depressed most of the time. i am gaining pounds (hehe, huhu. yack, mixed emotions) and of course, i still hate and dread it. but in this entry, for a change, i want to stop whining. i just had a hit-on-the-head realization, despite all the bad things which i feel are pressing on me, despite all my rants on how shitty life can be, god still loves me. and He continues to bless me.

i feel i have so many things to thank god for. i was able to finish my comm sem paper even without my laptop. i was exempted from two of my final exams. i was able to be with responsible and diligent groupmates for our com theory paper that we were able to submit it ahead of time. :)

aside from academic stuff, i have to be thankful also for my family and friends who i think is always there for me (never mind the cliche - i just cant find better words to express it) because of how busy i was in the past few weeks, i feel that i was neglecting so many things - so many people. i had no time to play the guitar, even no time to listen to music, no time to write anything on my journal, no time to write here, no time to spend time with blockmates, no time to reply to my parents' text messages asking me how i am, no time to talk with anyone, -- basically, no time to get out of my self-preoccupations. these things make me feel guilty, of course. oh well, that's the least i could do..