Sunday, September 05, 2004

i've spent half of today finishing the paper for our comm research reporting - about the research methods. the paper is 13 pages long, imagine that!

anyway, i feel so bored with my life now. yeah right, i realized that just now.

yesterday, i turned down two appointments because my mind was preoccupied with all the things i have to accomplish for school.

ate bean and i were supposed to watch a movie after our comm research meeting..but we cancelled it because i told her we couldnt watch the last full show. i wanted to watch at around 6 or 7 sana so i could still have time to do what i have to do. whatever. i wonder when we can ever go out. the thing is, we always text each, we always plan to go out but our schedules just dont meet. :( yesterday's cancelled is like the nth. sad. )

then, at around 10 pm, as i was typing the comm paper, my cousin andeng texted me telling me that they're gonna pick me up at the dorm if i wanna come with them to makati. hayy.. .i badly wanted to come but conscience told me that i should just stay home. after all, i went out friday night (timhaus).

i wish i could say sorry to those people whom i cant be with. :(

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i notice that i am getting fat now. (believe me.)
yes, it's that fast. it is true that weight loss is as fast as weight gain. i noticed that my arms are getting bigger after only three consecutive days of eating extra calories. shet.. i dont know what to do. i am trying to normalize my eating habits now by eating at least two meals per day but i still am so scared to get fat. but i am also scared of having ulcers or making all my systems fail. (hmm, i still dont have my period since this sem started. i dont know if its because of my eating habits or what)
something must be terribly wrong with me.