Tuesday, August 10, 2004

haha.. kewl.. i just found out that a 'friend' has backstabbed me. it happened like last schoolyear but of course, if it's true, tsk tsk, it's definitely something that i would not forget easily.

people are really weird. i have proven myself that there are really fugly bitches in this mean world. (haha, i remember the mean world syndrome we have discussed in comm theory class and of course, the movie 'mean girls') ayyy..probably i really just dont know her really. i dont know if it's bad but everytime, i look at her now, i cant help but be annoyed knowing that behind that seemingly 'innocent' person, is a backstabber. i pity her.

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damn, chocolate cakes are haunting me the whole day.

i ate chocolate cake and lotsa junk food for lunch since our block held this surprise 'eat-together' for ktl at treens' condo. wow, for someone like me who's in a so-called diet, wehe, i've just commited the ultimate sin! shet, i felt so guilty after eating a lot -- worse, eating a lot of FATTENING foods. shet.. after that, i promosed not to eat dinner anymore or to just eat apple.

when i arrived at the dorm, it happened that crystal, a dormmate was also celebrating her birthday. as i was going up the stairs, roommate khia called me and said she needed help. there, i found out that they were planning to surprise crystal. on the table was a chocolate cake. i was like, ""damn.. damn.. again?!" i helped with the lettering stuff for the happy bday banner, hehe.. crystal came and guess what she was carrying, a red ribbon box -- damn, chocolate mousse. huhu, nakakaiyak. i assume you would know what happened next.. i ate again - chocolate again. shet, i really lack discipline especially when cravings come.

i felt sooo guilty after that. nothing's so new about that, by the way. tsk tsk. the thing is -- crystal said that she was treating us (dormers) for dinner sa world topps. huh?! i motivated myself that i wouldnt come with them anymore repeating this mantra in my head that "teng, stop it. you've had enough for the day", which is true. i actually had more than enough, i guess. but since i couldnt say no and i dont think they would let me say that i wouldnt come with them, i joined them for dinner but before that, i made them promise me first that they wouldnt force me to eat. the deal was that i would go with them but i'll just drink water. yeah,, i didnt eat. shet, i was so proud of myself for that.