Tuesday, June 22, 2004

my emotions are affected by the gloomy weather. this morning, i never thought i would cry. but yes, i did. i just had this sinking feeling of loneliness. i suddenly felt homesick. suddenly, i miss my family, i miss our home in baler, i miss my high school friends. hayy.. and when i miss people, i really do. everytime i tell people i miss them, i am not saying that just to please them, i really do.

when llane woke up this morning, (i was dressing up then preparing for my 930 class), i confided to her how lonely i was feeling, blah blah. then, without even 'thinking' about it, i just burst into tears. it was something that i couldnt control. i just felt the hot tears falling down on my cheeks this cold morning.i was so sad. that feeling i had this morning is strange. i mean, i have always been experiencing depression almost everyday but the one this morning is just exceptional because it made me cry andi usually dont cry when im sad. i usually do when im pissed off or mad, by the way.

but i had no choice but to attend theo class. im not the type of person who's into cutting classes, no matter how bad i am feeling or no matter i have to do something more important. it wasnt easy holding back those tears in class.

ANYWAY, i quite felt better after yeye texted me [ i texted her before going to class telling her yun nga, , how lonely i am feeling] and after our fil class. thanks to that movie our pinoy prof made us watch, -- "ligaya ang itawag mo sa akin." GOD really speaks to us in unique ways.